My World of Crazy Verse

In Times Of Fun

2009-12-24T12:58:00.000-08:00

Want to remember the rush of the wind
The echo of my voice in the sky
Connecting to so many passers by
In the form of nods and smiles
Of love mutiplied manifold
So alive
So splendid
One after the other
Less sleep than I've ever had
But I don't tire
I crave for more
And more not in material
Not in moment
But in sensation
Just from within
Elemental within me
I finally accept my calling
To become the fire I am

Black

2009-12-04T08:56:00.000-08:00

Rush of wind to my side
Rustle of cloth in my ear
Flesh against mine
Guiding pushing prodding
I am in the dark
And there is no one
I'd rather have
Than you by me

World spins unbalanced
Ground slides beneath me
Precarious and blurred
But I am not scared
You are by me

This exam will not happen again
My brain's weeping 'I can not'
But my heart's smiling still
Calm, serene, knowing
Knowing you are by me

Flawed

2009-12-04T08:53:00.000-08:00

Exposed to my eyes
Every inch of your insecurity
You turn away awaiting
Embarrassed
How could you feel so?
When you're with me

I care not for perfection
Its you I see
You as you are
Whom I choose to have

My love is not blind
It is unconditional
As long as you are mine
My friend, my love
What more need I ask for?

Music

2009-12-04T08:50:00.000-08:00

Rhythm flew through his veins
Forceful yet gentle magic
Electricity turning the keys
So basic so ethereal
Calling out the unthought emotions
What is this connection?
What is this language?
Whispering endearments
And I reach automatically
Who is this?
Who knows my void?
Though he doesn't know me
Who has laid claim to my deepest thoughts?
And I know its not just me
Oh! To have such power
Such...
There are no words for once
I shudder
And press replay...

Intoxication

2009-12-04T08:47:00.000-08:00

The unruly sun would burn
My light starved skin
The free earth would run
A balm
To my numb broken hands
These legs would stretch and run
When I would finally stand
Beyond these gates
Beyond these walls
Beyond these bars
The sweet pleasure of falling on my knees
And embracing my newly found earth
The intoxication of freedom
Oh! The intoxication of freedom!

One Night in the Ward

2009-09-15T11:10:00.000-07:00

Screams fill the room
Air heavy with desperation
A voice pleads ‘No more no more’
As the owner drowns in perspiration

Mom craves the sleep her body shuns
Needles become one with her veins
Wires connect and disconnect
There’s much to gain
She accepts the pain

The one thing they felt was theirs
They give up to those in coats of white
Loss of control
The smallest task
Something they just can’t get right

One stretches as they tell her
Agony wracking its way into sound
Another drinks ‘poison’ when they force her
Dreaming of six feet underground
Sometimes a deep sleep seems so much better…

Mother smiles her way through
She shields me from the worst of it
She doesn’t think about where she is
She tells me her dos and don’ts list

She sees red wine in injected iron
She finds humor in the tiniest gaffe
She finds strength with my arms around her
As both of us give in to the urge to laugh

The hospital is a strange place for friendship and for love
Friends show, strangers care, families don’t hesitate
The world seems so vivid when you’re trying not to give up
On a life where there’s so much left to appreciate

So Obvious

2009-08-13T21:22:00.000-07:00

I was played for a fool
Gullible as I could be
To what the world seemed to know
But I couldn't seem to see

Sweet words can fool you
'I'm being honest' just a line
You can end up being used
By that 'honesty' in time

Who do I direct my anger at?
The fooler or my better sense
As helpless as my heart's always been
The wound opens up again

Helpless heart but not helpless mind
It will protect me this time
People walk in, walk by or leave
But I'll never again so easily believe

Spoilt For Choice

2009-08-13T10:23:00.004-07:00

She stood on the shoulders of giants
They called themselves her parents
What they'd gone through never more apparent
As she counted what she had that they hadn't

Make your way through this world my girl
His hand on her brow adored her
The affection viewed as pressure by her eyes
How much did he want for her?

Here she was in a world so large, so bright
So many things to do if she could just do them right
How did she ever choose when she didn't know what she'd like?

Degree after degree, course after course
The print flew by her, the print flew from her
She forgot where she was

This is what they do I must do it too
I can't stagnate I must do something
Years of work still gave her nothing

She was unhappy with it all
Still too afraid to stall
Afraid she'd lose it all
What if there was nothing to lose?

So she drifted ahead like a log at sea
Till she couldn't take it anymore
And resigned at last from what
Had never been hers to do

She took the year she should have taken
She broke the monotony she should have broken
She finally stood up and let herself awaken
To a choice she should have always taken

Though spoilt for choice I may be
I've got the guts to choose whats meant for me
Even if it means I have to step aside
Instead of a formula stated by someone else
Listen to the voice I have inside...

Bad Marriage

2009-03-30T20:01:00.001-07:00

The slides ley broken in her fingers
Shreds like nerves torn apart
It was her fault again
For listening to her obstinate heart

The image stayed in her mind
This wife was never mine
A smile which had no joy
A will that had to be moulded in time

Again and again, trying to convince oneself
Its okay I can do this, I can stand up to the test
Then falling and hoping the next would hurt much less
Holding on to the person you used to be
When everything about you is something else you don't recognize
Lord she wouldn't wish this on an enemy
Not once, not twice, her recurring demise

Try to hold on, the voices said
Try to smile, scolded her heart
Try to put yourself together
When all of her felt torn apart

Was she supposed to care at all
About something that brought her
Naught but despair
Oh where was that girl
Who thought nothing was impossible?
She's right here
She's right here
She's right here

Her Majesty The Queen

2009-02-24T06:42:00.000-08:00

She rushed inside her quarters
A lady and a knight
Would she be the delicate?
Would she lead them to the fight?

She'd ignored it far too long
She felt fear at death
Her heart stormed
Her head hurt
What if she was no good at it?

She closed her eyes to fight the tremor
And a picture materialized
The lands burnt to cinder
The innocents brutalized

She had to fight for all of them
She had to stand up and be
Acknowledge who the hell she was
There was no room for anxiety

So she listed her resources
Cool precision, steady strategy
She had made her share of mistakes
The greatest was hesitancy

She knew her strength and weakness
She had an army on her side
Who she believed in
On who she could rest her life

At the head she placed herself
A coward wasn't the one to lead
As the army surrounded to protect to death
Her Majesty The Queen

CAT

2009-02-22T08:57:00.000-08:00

Miaow!

Deprivation Vs Depravation

2009-02-19T05:55:00.001-08:00

I see it in the leers
I hear it in the jeers
A playboy is not so much a gigolo
As a hottie may be a slut
Call 'him' whatever you want to
The world will view it as anything but
If even rapes can be blamed on both
And both can be victimized
Why is a girl's rep so much more in jeopardy
If her sex life gets publicized
Not like she spends every day
Pinching guys' butts
Or calling them a tasty piece of ass
When did we girls accept
To let this discrimination pass
Sex is just that
Not the monopoly of just one
Let them do what the heck they want to
Its their will
Let them have their fun
There's a world of difference
In will vs force
That makes all the difference
Between Deprivation and Depravation

Personality Contest @ UICT

2009-02-18T05:19:00.000-08:00

I'm the devil in disguise
And my friends would agree
Torturing people cause I can
Is not a stretch for me

How else would a guy
Be chased around a stage
With a whip in the hand
Of a girl who could have her way?

How else would a guy
Be made to jump around and prance
In his hand a fairy wand
So he could do the fairy dance

Maybe a three foot baby doll
Incongruous with a six foot man
As he tried to ask me
For my very cynical hand

A girl held her gun to the head
Of a disbelieving guy
Told him to shut the f* up
Or she'd blow his brains sky high

The flavors of a condom
One poor guy went on to explain
To spread AIDS awareness
Knowledge of product was his aim

One had to decorate himself with lipstick
One shed light on the alternative use of balls
Besides handy biceps,
He used them for - ahem!
He had some gall ;)

Now you might wonder what was my hand in this
Where did this happen, you might fret
It was at my college Personality Contest
Which I helped arrange ;)
Which I don't think I'm ever likely to forget :)

I must admit

2009-02-18T05:01:00.001-08:00

I must admit it now
The world is getting scary and how

Ladies gifting politicians chuddies
Illiterates trying to solve our worries

Jail being like finishing school for politics
Or rather where they hang out for kicks

Twin elephants Vs the Gators
Once the votes come in
There are the 'I'll see you laters'

Minorities like targets waiting
Vote bangers never quitting complaining

Insanity needs an antidote
Before half of us go in to vote

I must admit
I need to stop writing this shit

And register as a voter
Not like the world can get any madder
(or can it?)

A Healthy Sense of Humor

2009-02-18T04:36:00.000-08:00

A healthy sense of humor
Will not give one a tumor
May give one a spasm
But will save from one black chasm
May send one a bit higher
As the heart thus inspired
May do a jig and guffaw
But laughing is not against the law
Laugh and thou shalt be redeemed
Is a commandment by me
Self expression ain't a crime
Ridicule everyone in time
Life does it anyway
Be he straight or be he gay
He'll be laughing if he may
Do the hell what he wants
Stick one finger up in the air
Prance about like a clown
And laugh merrily 'I don't care'
As long as no one's getting hurt
I'll fulfill my tryst with mirth ;)

The Devil Loves Me

2009-02-14T11:26:00.000-08:00

I can't explain it
I don't know what to say
Its not normal
Its downright creepy
5 times he's come
5 times he's claimed to love me
I have not run
I have not simply stood
I have loved him back
I have given him a chance
And he's not let me down
He's redeemed himself
Am I to love the devil?
Is the devil the on who loves me?
Why do I not scream in terror?
But feel a thill down my spine
At the ultimate bad boy
Hotter than hell
Fallen angel
Am I to sleep with a smile on my face
As I wonder if I'll dream once more
That The Devil Loves Me

Entrance

2009-01-31T11:20:00.001-08:00

Enter another dimension now
This one's being set on fire
Enter another reality now
This one's being burnt with denial

Block block block
Worry worry worry
Take it easy for the heck of it
Hurry hurry hurry

Voids cannot be filled with duty
Hearts cannot be melted with prayer
Just inject me with anaesthetic
Let me be unaware

Ah! But I won't need to face the doom
I'm entering another dimension now
This one's being set on fire
I need to save myself somehow

Being a Team

2009-01-27T09:32:00.000-08:00

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Being a Team

2009-01-27T09:29:00.000-08:00

By turns everything

2009-01-26T22:38:00.001-08:00

By turns fair
By turns sensitive
By turns a steamroller
By turns aloof
By turns the smartest
By turns a blonde
By turns effervescent
By turns all air out
By turns decided
By turns confused
By turns the limelight
By turns a recluse
By turns gregarious
By turns timid and shy
By turns logical
By turns idealistic
By turns optimistic
By turns pessimistic
By turns valuing cash
By turns knowing it buys nothing lasting
By turns loving God
By turns forgetting him completely
By turns keeping love my greatest ambition
By turns knowing i'm self sufficient
By turns needing the same
By turns craving variety
By turns cherishing madness
By turns all sobriety
By turns so many different things
By turns who wants to hold onto memory
By turns I wish I remembered more
By turns thankful school is over
By turns wishing it were on
By turns feeling great connections everywhere
By turns knowing I'll never truly belong
By turns feeling potential dynamic
By turns feeling I'm always static
By turns opening up and telling all
By turns wondering whether to be honest at all
By turns cherishing life and reality
By turns all i want is the world in my sleep
By turns so many different people
I am
By turns everything

Reinforcements

2009-01-21T12:16:00.000-08:00

No research-
Coz I don't like lab
I wish I did
But I just feel irritated in it
Bound by technique (i hate rules)
Enslaved by my own temperament
And it doesn't come that naturally
(I don't like things that don't come naturally)
I picture myself getting bored and frustrated
Wishing there was something with faster results
Where i could see more getting executed
Perhaps at most I'd like to chronicle
The current work in my writing
At least it'd be an outlet
I could come up with fantastic ideas i know
I'm good at that
But even now tell me to make a presentation
(read research articles)
I'll yawn in your face
Tell me to make a sales strategy
Or a business plan
I'm suddenly all over the place
My pricing skills have to be improved tho
And sure right now if I make myself think that way
Seeing falciparum under a microscope
Or going to Africa to research HIV may seem like fun
But imagination is sorely overdone
My other side argues
Picking up the phone and calling someone
Doesn't seem that much fun at all (networking)
But when I was an editor I loved doing it
I guess its all about the need, recognition and of course the pay
I love seeing new places- maybe thats why Africa seems so nice
A microscope for 2o years- oh yeah suddenly I'm screaming help!
A centrifuge, a chromatograph, a colorimeter
Help! Help! Help!!!
Is it fun tho?
latest equipment? Hmmm????
Wouldn't I like to be at the forefront of new discovery???
The truth is its not all glory
Its damn hard work
And when it comes down to it
Where would you rather damn hard work?
The research point of view or the business point of view
And i guess there is my answer
I would prefer not to damn hard work at all...lolz!
Think Divya Think!
Would I rather get picked on by a boss at research or business?
Would i rather get up early sleep late for reasearch or for business?
Would I apply all my energy and not feel that bad for research or for business?
Would i rather endure politics at research or at business?
Would I be more willing to solve problems at research or at business?
Would i cut the crap and do what I have to at research or at business?
Would I not feel resentful at reasearch or at business?
Would I laugh more and for the right reasons at research or at business?
Would I breathe easier at research or at business?
Would I be able to multitask and have a life?
Would I love my life more if I took up research or business?
Would I feel my potential being utilized at research or at business?
Well considering all the answers except the last are unequivocally business
I guess industry after B. Pharm is fine by me... ;)

Ten years from now

2009-01-21T11:58:00.000-08:00

This is an experiment
My mistress shall help me find a wife
My hobby shall tell me what I want from life
Poetry come to my rescue
After my B. Pharm, what shall I do?

Okay I really don't want to study more
In all honesty, I can't seem to put my mind to it
And there is an old saying- you understand when you do it
Even if there is a global crisis
If I work I'll learn more (just like a course)
Colo, Cogno, Ceutics, Biotech
Research for the impatient is a bore

I don't see myself motivated enough
Though I'd love to find a cure to malaria or diabetes
Put me in a lab
And I'm much more likely
To write another one of these
(Saying how i must get out)

Rather than be the nincompoop
Who loathes lab while longing to be Shakespeare
Industry will fascinate me if merely the cycle
That helps rake in the profit each year

Its so much more practical and a lot more versatile
I can choose to do as I please
And I can find which position I like best
And put in the best of me

If I change my mind (which I doubt)
I can always do a course later
But right now I want to be in the midst of things
I want to do something that will put me in it all
I want to see the industry
And I want to learn now
What am I most compatible with
What interests me the most
What can i excel at
In reaching quality drugs to those who need them

Drunk

2009-01-21T11:53:00.001-08:00

Sweet swirl of liquid
Fragrance intoxicates me
Devilish warm

Soak in the drop
It floods my senses
Ah! What a rush!

The night cuddles me
I feel the wind beneath
No longer grounded
I'm high!

Who cares about balance?
When you can do the crazy dance
Give me just one more
I'll show you what it means to be free

She cares

2009-01-21T11:49:00.000-08:00

I know she cares
She can't help it
If she's a million years away
What the hell!
It seems like everyone is

I know I have to
I can't help it
I don't do anything
I don't want to
Depends on my mood

These red eyes
Like my soul is bleeding
Don't jump to conclusions
Its just too much reading
I can't help it if i chase fantasy
Its the only way I know to time travel

Rambling on and on
Its 1 :30 what the hell is going on?
So sweet this black and white
But I must really say good nite
What the hell
Maybe just one more...

Static

2009-01-21T11:45:00.000-08:00

Freeze the time
I'm out of sync
I don't want to rhyme
But its how I think
Do what is easy
Or blend myself in the dust
Not so easy for you
But its the only thing I trust
Just flowing
My way to get back
To where I need to be
My truest way
To get out of me
And change this static moment
To a dynamic creation

Migraine- A Tale of Computer Addiction

2009-01-21T11:39:00.000-08:00

I've plugged in my brain
To its gigabytes
Slave to an addiction
Minutes become hours become days
Staring at pixels
Now they merge into one
They blur as a deformed reality
My virtual craze
No longer cognizant of that around me
No longer me
I'm anime
I'm a robot
I'm nonexistent
Colors, noises, prerogatives
All so much easier
I've escaped
And now I've lost
Time, Energy, Reason
Over the score that doesn't matter
I'm lost in the blur
Migraine

Complicated

2009-01-18T09:43:00.000-08:00

Uncomprehensible logic
An irony so tragic
All calling for a little magic
An attempt at understanding

Gals can't escape emotion
Guys give logic their devotion
Both feel lust in good proportion
But love can get demanding

Its Mr. Right Vs. Mr. Right Now
Soul mates find each other anyhow
When you find yours- you know somehow
And then you leap hoping you'll have that safe landing

...Your happily ever after ending.... ;) ;) ;)

LMAO

2009-01-18T09:37:00.000-08:00

Its time we get over it
What we did we did was shit
Could never have believed it
U did ur time i took my hit
Its time we just laugh over it
We'll keep it as a memory bit
Its time we get over it ;)
So I'm LMAO- hah hahahah hahahah hahah hahahah hahah
Who could ever have believed it????

Study Smart

2009-01-15T05:41:00.000-08:00

Study hard he says
I say I'd rather study smart
Wasting time to maximize it
Is truly an in born art ;)

Sleep to wake up to the dawn
With a need to see salvation
A burst of passion headed my way
To make the best of education

I have time- to faf and play
To share my self with those around
Studying is maxing ur mind and minning your time
And not to your books be bound

Back to The Beginning

2009-01-10T08:20:00.000-08:00

(This has been recollected from a dream. At the time it was startling in its intensity and detail)
She' d seen everything
Done everything
Tired and jaded from exhaustion
She weighed her options
As she flew across the sea
Danced along its surface really
Startling beauty against the setting sun
Summer, winter, heaven, hell...
Every portal was open to her
Mars, Pluto, ...Atlantis...
Boring! reechoed in her mind
Hitler, Chanakya, Cesar, Rameses...
Damn! She'd seen all of them
She hated repeating herself
Then suddenly an idea came
And she smiled
Automatically
Darn it! Who would have thought?
She smiled once more
And magically blushed
She knew where she needed to be
With the one heart that had captured hers
Before it had given out
She'd teach him to be strong- just like her
She'd show him marvellous things
She'd see him smile- still innocent
And thoroughly taken with her idea
She went to be a nanny- if you could call her that
To the small boy who called to her
From right across the shore

(The girl's name is Dinah. She is an immortal who has vast power - teleportation, prescience and superhuman strength to name a few. She features in most of the legends with different names and laughs at those who consider her a heroine for despite her basic nature, she feels she can never give back as much as she has been given. She loves living amongst humans and changing base now and then. Playful and loving, she is at crossroads in the 21st century where she really does not know what to do with her life. Before she makes that decision, she will take a break by becoming a nanny to the child, the man she most loved used to be and taking him on her secret journeys. He will grow up to be the most widely read author in the world.)

The Birth of Fire

2009-01-10T08:01:00.000-08:00

(Disha has been a naughty girl all day- only reading in bed and not doing anything she said she would. Her mom comes home and finding the place a mess, rages out - shouting up and down the house. Disha uses her choice escape- sleep where she can drown out the voice and the momentary guilt. However she has given her body enough rest to change to the full version of Fire- a change she is not prepared for but must come to terms with somehow)

She found herself in shadow
Huddling in the dark
Voices shouting all around her
Intensifying
She shivered and burnt in the same instant
She tried to sleep but the peace wouldn't come
Tossing and turning she tried to drown out the sensation
Of heat prickles climbing up her spine like angry snakes
And spreading like a quick fever to the rest of her
Burning the sinew and cartilage in its wake
The pain- the burning pain
And then she became all numb
For she couldn't feel a thing
But it wasn't over yet
Ropes of fire coiled within her
Replacing what they had destroyed
And she arose with renewed vigor
To take a look at herself
Through eyes that shot out flames
She smiled
This would take getting used to
Living breathing flame stood in the mirror
Tendrils of livid orange surrounding her face
Features and body defined by the flame
She wrinkled her nose in disgust
As she finally got the smell of something burning
She was standing, what would the voices say?
About the remnants of what used to be her room

Eyes

2009-01-07T10:22:00.000-08:00

He asked her again
'Will you marry me?'
She denied him
'Not till I have eyes to see.'

Providence was fair
Fate offered her a prize
A call to give her vision
A brand new pair of eyes

She opened them to see
A most unbearable sight
He was as blind as she'd been
She could not be his wife

He left in tears and wrote her
To finally cut off their ties
'Take care of the pair you're using now
They used to be my eyes.'

The only thing I've ever loved

2009-01-07T09:52:00.000-08:00

(A Vampire's Love- inspired from Twilight- Edward to Bella)

Forever isn't even close
To how long I'd wish you to be mine
But I don't want to kill
The only thing I've ever loved

You don't realize
What you ask of me
Too selfless to keep you by my side
Too selfish to relenquish your love
I need you here with me

Just a bit longer
Restrain this desire
Bind it with reason
I cannot take you
Cannot make you mine
I may eat you

I've waited for so long
Sweet strength don't desert me
You are yet mine my love
Till my senses leave me

Safe with me
Protected from my monster
You are my light, my life, my hope
The only thing I've ever loved

Just For The Moment

2009-01-05T10:36:00.000-08:00

She danced like a wild thing
On air she felt her heart sing
She’d given away everything
For one moment’s joy
She knew this wouldn’t last
She had to act so fast
Take everything then make it the past
For she couldn’t trust the boy
One more leap
Nothing too deep
Just a memory she could keep
Alive for the moment still

The Mummy

2009-01-02T09:50:00.000-08:00

(This is one of my fav films. I can see it an endless number of times. So I decided to write sumthin usin it as the inspiration)
She knew the place deep in her heart
It was where she was meant to be
He was the one who could take her there
But he was her enemy

Unwillingly they made a tryst
For the adventure and the gold
They were naught to know the surprise
Which their journey would have in store

For as they progressed further still
They found a love against their will
In the harshness of the desert land
As the monster awoke in the sand

It threatened to take the world over
As they looked to each other for light
And in them arose the heroes
That saved the world from night

They survived and not empty handed
For when the storm had passed
They found another form of treasure
They found their shelter at last

Beginning Today

2009-01-01T02:05:00.000-08:00

Just do it and you'll get through it
Be honest or land yourself in a web
Live for laughter, love and sunshine
Be the smile they can depend on yet
Just my New Year's Resolutions
May live up to them or may forget
But that's when another comes in handy
Forgive others you may or may not
But you bloody well better forgive yourself ! ;)

The Big Fat Joke

2009-01-01T01:37:00.000-08:00

Fire played a joke on Ice
But he didn’t think it was very nice
He didn’t laugh and he didn’t show
So whether he got it, she didn’t know
She did it as a friend to him
To let the message penetrate
But whether he was smart enough
Is something that she left to fate
So Fire will go and save the city
And leave Ice to ponder how
Even though she’s still quite mad at him
She doesn't want his feelings hurt somehow

Iron Garter

2008-12-28T09:18:00.000-08:00

She picked the lipstick
Pressed her lips against its smooth
What would he say if he really knew her
Would he be able to handle the truth?
She reached for his drink
As he tucked her hair behind her ear
She smiled and put the poison in
But felt a gun at the back of her
She threw the acid and burnt the eyes
Lifted her own gun and surprise surprise!
He was dead in front of her
The hall was littered with corpses
She ran out on full alert
And straight into the masses
Where was he?
She heard his laughter in her head
There again she saw a glimpse
Aimed and shot him dead
But she heard him laugh again
And realized it was just a mirror
He was behind her
And his hand about her neck
She kicked him where he deserved it
She hit him and brought him to the ground
And as he fell at last
She threw off her gloves and fell down
Tears in her eyes
For she'd never wanted this to be
Circumstance had killed the chance
And now all that remained
Was dust and a memory

Smooth Liar Sweet Talker

2008-12-28T09:07:00.000-08:00

She walked up to him. ‘Where have you been?’
‘Always here by your side’
He softly said and smoothly lied
And once more she let him inside
If it must be then it will
I’ll give my heart to you
As I get ready for the tears to spill
‘Lie just one more time
I’m so ready to be fooled’
It was enough if it was all he could give
She’d find her bliss in his cruel
She walked up to him. ‘Where have you been?’
‘Always here by your side’
He softly said and smoothly lied

Men

2008-12-22T09:52:00.000-08:00

The playboy flirts and flits around
The child can't make up his mind
The easy target is mostly the one
Which a guy is most eager to find
Easy enough to intimidate
Easier still to understand
Don't trust them fully, befriend them still
Coz there's an almost grown up in every man

Be Intimidated If U Hv 2

2008-12-22T09:46:00.000-08:00

Who I am is the way I wish to be
So drown in envy wishing you could be like me
Overwhelm yourself in the fear of facing me
If you can't realize that you are the same as me
Smarter, yes
Quicker, yes
Bolder, definitely yes
Not proud just stating a fact
I'm exactly what I wish to be
In this moment of time...

Nothing of Love

2008-11-02T12:06:00.000-08:00

(Fire and Ravage- Fire can create and control fire and self heal by turning herself into fire. Ravage can create sounds of any frequency and sometimes to manipulate people. Here he uses resonance to break the ice surrounding fire. This was inspired by Body of lies. I was touched by how Leo DiCap is so willing to give his life in return for Aisha's. It got me wondering about a girl doing the same for the guy she loves. So here is this poem- Nothing of Love- Fire gives herself up for Ravage)

Ravage walked out into the light
Freed from the cold he’d been forced into
Fire paid the price for his freedom
Unknown to him
For she loved him more than anyone knew
Powerful in her choice
Determined in her stride
A bargain trade
She was to pay with her life
What did these people know of God anyway?
Those who knew nothing of love

Captured, blindfolded, beaten
Alone in this desert she’d chosen to be in
She smiled as they twisted her bit by bit
They could break her but not her spirit
They could ravish her stubborn beauty
But she would remain resolved
She was unaffected as one with her God
She scoffed at her captors
They knew nothing of love

She smiled as the pain became a burn
As her flesh cried out, she prayed
She laughed even as her blood spilled
She smiled as they became frustrated
As they tried harder to force her will
She pitied the whole lot
What did they know of God?
They who knew nothing of love

She became distant from her body
The chemicals which held her together
She wished she could numb the nerves
As the pain again caused her to tremor
She thought about their times together
And she found the strength to be
She smiled at the fool who prayed to his Lord
What did they know of God?
They who knew nothing of love

Flesh was weak though the spirit strong
She would be a memory before long
They had buried her in ice
So even fire could not revive her glow
She could not use her power
But she would never let go
What did they know of God?
They who knew nothing of love

The enemy smirked at the state she was in
And laughed at the revenge he would score
She nodded as the gun came to her head
‘Go ahead you coward’, she cared not anymore
She closed her eyes to the bang of the door
They had come to save her at last
The enemy could only guess at God
As he could only guess at love

Ravage broke the ice with his voice
He was yet amazed at what she had done
He gathered her like the treasure she was
And warmed her in the rays of the sun
She healed herself through fire
And Ravage hugged the woman he loved
He knew heaven in that instant
And thanked the God above
What did they know of God?
They who knew nothing of love

The Holidays

2008-11-02T02:17:00.000-08:00

The fresh dawn of a new tomorrow
Never brought with it such sweet sorrow
As at the end of blissful days
When I say goodbye to blessed holidays
Oh Sun don't set, oh moon don't rise
Oh time stay locked
The world fades to transient illusion
I get carried in the tide of a world's persuasion
Oh hard struggle to find the door to something more
Something beyond the tyranny of custom
I shiver and quake in the aftermath of realization
There can be no other way in wretched reality
Than to stay in obsequiosness to duty
Would i still stumble or dawn on the light in will
Make duty my loyal ally and monotony a thrill
By bending reality to my control
And in doing so break off tyranny
And arise like a phoenix to the adventure of my life
In all its glorious spellbinding color
And not cower like a man about to be hanged
But take it up of my own and be the king of my land

Voice

2008-10-08T01:59:00.000-07:00

Politics laughs at the fools of its manipulation
Makes a mockery of the laws of our constitution
Are we to be represented by a flock of hungry vultures
Preying on industry, religion, caste
Messing with our futures
Are we to blame as well for giving it up to fate?
I wish to use my limitations for the happiness of a whole
Its selfish- all I want is the peace of my own soul
I know what I want and I know how to get there
In the interim I shall do all I can
Not fall prey to my own self righteousness
Uphold equality, value diversity and be a medium
For the voices of the world

For The Love of Lucifer

2008-10-02T11:13:00.000-07:00

'Who are you?' She trembled
As she felt his presence draw near
'I am the one who loves you
There is no need for fear.'

'I feel like I've met you before
Tell me how can that be?'
'We were meant to be together angel
From genesis to eternity.'

'Don't you remember my Father's home
My brothers and the games we played
Don't you remember the fight we had
How things could never be the same?'

'I should be angry that you left
I've taken the anger out on this world
But now I've seen you I can do naught but love you
You are the one who can save me girl'

She was transported back in time
And then she understood
The devil, he had no evil
Only a heart that broke and shook

She felt the connection surge
And all her doubts fell away
She nodded as he took her hand
'I'm ready, you may show me the way'

And the heavens opened up
To swallow them in white fleece
As her heart shook with the love she felt
The world lit up with peace

'You have my love' she said
He answered 'Darling, you've saved my life.'
As heaven erupted to thunderous applause
For the Devil had brought Home his wife.

The Bella and The Rogue

2008-10-02T11:04:00.000-07:00

She lifted her fan to her face
And blushed her winning smile
The gentlemen rushed to her side
They formed a crowd in the aisle

Her beauty that of the fairest pearl
Her voice like merry nightingale
As she scanned the room she found
A dark handsome unmoved male

She slanted her gaze to assess
Such an anomaly and to her whim
She walked of her own accord
And asked the next dance of him

As they danced she asked his name
And it was then she discovered
This irresistible rogue
Was the friend to whom she'd promised forever

'I've never forgotten you'
She smiled as he broke down and said
' I've tried time and again
But I could never get you out of my head'

And so the song came to a close
And we shall leave these two to find
That when a bella meets a rogue
Sometimes she finds a love divine

Vampira Davies- The Lonely Truth

2008-10-02T10:49:00.000-07:00

A million years I've waited
I've been hunted and alone
A victim of the light
A shadow of those unkown

Detested and despised
Feared by every one
A victim to my hunger
I crave the blood that runs

A million years I've tried
I've covered every ground
A single worthy man
Is a treasure that cannot be found

I live to feed and feed to live
There is nothing else
For only true love can save me
That and nothing less

Someone strong, honest and kind
Someone intelligent and open minded
Someone with a ready smile or joke
Tell me where can I find him?

Tell me and I shall grant you
Treasure and knowledge galore
For the only treasure that I now crave
Is a man to love forever more

No Need for Fear- A hymn

2008-10-02T06:54:00.000-07:00

You don’t need eyes to see what is within you
You don’t need hands to reach what rests within
There is no need for fear when I am here with you
So hold your cross and sing along
Let the walk begin

In the storm I’ll carry you
Through the walk, I’ll be right by your side
Whatever I get you to
I’ll take you to the other side

There is no need for fear
Infinite, connected I and you
So walk ahead with lifted head
Knowing that I’m loving you

Warrior

2008-10-02T06:53:00.000-07:00

Life is in the living
Love is in the giving
Pain is in the brain
You have to risk to gain
Each moment ablaze
With the fluidity of grace
Never let weakness
Compel you to bend
But be your own WARRIOR
Fighting till the end

Fly

2008-10-02T06:41:00.000-07:00

Confident in purpose
Determined in stride
Pray for the strength to go on
Ignore the weakness inside
Not care about what I don’t know
Change no one but myself
Worry about only that which I can help
Don’t care if I fall down
Full freedom to cry
Its only when I’m down to earth
That I’ll have the power to fly

Hot (This and Universe are for Ravage from Fire)

2008-10-02T06:13:00.000-07:00

I had a dream of us last night
I woke up in a sweat
My restraint is our constraint
I haven't f*kd you yet

It doesn't mean that I don't want to
Cause it's all that fills my mind
You make me so hot for you
You damn near blow my mind

I'm burning with a fire
And this time its not my fault
Did you have to be so goddam gorgeous?
You had no right at all

Distract me from this feeling
Its turning me inside out
How do you contain yourself?
All I want to do is to do it now

Be strong for us baby
While I ache and yearn
You make me so Hot for you darlin'
You make this FIRE burn ;)

Universe

2008-10-02T06:05:00.000-07:00

He looked at her and she felt beautiful
He smiled at her and she got high
He got down on one knee and her mind spun
As he asked her 'will you dance with me?'

He held her hand and she felt infinite
He brought her close and he brought her home
Silver angels of notes guided them
He looked into her eyes and he gave her the universe to view

Ravage to Fire- Leave the past

2008-10-02T06:02:00.000-07:00

He whispered in your ear he loves you
He whispered in your ear he cares
He whispered in your ear he loves you
And you turned around and he wasn’t there

So you held the flame and burnt the paper
You kissed the memory goodbye
But it still feels like he wants to haunt you
That he wants to stay right by your side

So kiss me now and leave me breathless
Leave the past far behind
And run into these open arms- they’re waiting
As he slips back into your mind

So you held the flame and burnt the paper
You kissed the memory goodbye
But it still feels like he wants to haunt you
That he wants to stay right by your side

It’s me who loves you,
It’s me who cries
It’s me who wonders
If you’ll ever realize…

So kiss me now and leave me breathless
Leave the past far behind
And run into these open arms- they’re waiting
As he slips back into your mind

F* I'm Twenty

2008-09-25T09:51:00.000-07:00

I just puked in my plate
Its time i learnt to appreciate
My life's all tops turvy
So i'm irresponsible but I respond
I may want to f* the hell out of a life I'm really fond
I'm still hammering out a place for me to belong
I'm all of only twenty
There's so much to do I wish i could clone myself
Sometimes I don't know myself anymore
Sometimes I rush into the moment
To forget the bruises and the sores
One step away from misery
Fantastic is as much as you're allowing yourself to feel
Limitless is as much as I'm allowing myself to be
No comparisons, no prejudice, no past
Forgive myself, forgive others, just as fast
I'm not fighting for anything
Except my own peace of mind
Sorry if I ever caused you trouble
Call me whatever you want to
And tell me whatever you feel
I maybe weak indisciplined too stubborn for my own good
I'll keep on giving it my best again and again and again

Transience

2008-09-05T22:51:00.000-07:00

Life
Friends
Transient fleeting ephemeral
Hold on and give it your all
Fight to spark it with passion
Be honest be strong
But know you can only do so much
Sometimes you grow
You leave behind
You move on
Don't break, for there is always something new
Some new experience
Some new acquaintace
Just waiting to come alive
Just waiting to be more
Be limitless
And leave the rest to God

Pulsatile

2008-09-04T10:20:00.000-07:00

So alive in every beat
With the steady glow of body heat
Breaking your back to earn your bread
Milking every moment as is your right
Dreaming the impossible
Proving the myth untrue
Fighting disbelief
Showing the world the quality of you
Incongruous mayhem
Bullock meets BMW
Thronging, honking, singing, screaming
Crazy kaleidoscope
Hold on for the rollercoaster hasn't ended
In one fabulously fascinating life
That is yours
In the CITY THAT NEVER SLEEPS
MUMBAI!

F*ck

2008-09-04T10:11:00.000-07:00

(Zondra- The Queen of St. Anger)

Sometimes I F* the world
Sometimes I luv it as much as the next F*r
Sometimes it kisses my ass
And sometimes it takes me for a S*r
Sometimes i give it my all for nothin
Sometimes it gives me the big O just like dat
I luv to hate as much as i hate to need the love
That we social animals keep on waiting for
I'll just grip it by the throat
And for fun let it go
It'll come back to me yet
For I'm the only F*r it'll nvr b able 2 4gt

Spot of Red

2008-09-03T11:44:00.000-07:00

Startling in its intensity
My opportunity to stand against
Superstition and suppression
By heeding the call of bells

A simple thread on my hand
Yet like a visible bond
The abstract had become tangible
One of friendship hope and love

But a powder yet a mark
A sign of belonging and respect
Blazing like a fire
On the foreahead that bent to receive it

Spread on the floor like sinking sand
A nightmare alive all at once
As the dream bled its final course
Reality had slashed the wrist
Of that fanciful idea

Just a spot of red
But all that it conveys
In the span of a moment several lifetimes
In the form of one face several emotions
Just a simple spot of red

Strong Now, Come On

2008-09-02T10:26:00.000-07:00

Its so clear
I needn't disguise it
By the inadequacies of my thoughts
Its so repeated
I needn't hide behind
My failure to remember the cost
Its so true
Yet needs so much strength
To understand and not lie to myself
So let it be
As it must be
Let the dusk come
And the dawn shine anew
I will not let emotion rule
I shall let logic take over
Like a guy does
And accept what is
And not ponder over
What I know nothing about
For time is precious

The Truth

2008-09-02T10:23:00.000-07:00

The Truth stared her in the face
They'd long ago passed the cliff
They'd long ago jumped
And she'd found she had no parachute
She found she was the only one
Mid air
No where to go
But below
Long ago she'd made her choice
And now all she was was evanescent
Gaseous, volatile, ghostly
She could never be as she was before
A change of course was futile
This was the truth

S, C & aBoR- Captain Diana Jamieson

2008-08-29T23:05:00.000-07:00

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum
I got me dagger and me gun
Woe to the man who dares to come
Near this woman
I'll shoot him in the bum!

Twas a man with an ego so large
There was no place for the ship in the barge
The new age ones call him an mcp
Well he tried to get the better of me
And before he knew it he went through it
And found his ass in the deep blue sea

A love lorn fool came up and said
'If I don't have thy love, you'll find me dead'
I asked him then
'Do you want to do it yourself
Or shall i shoot you instead?'
For I have no patience
For the light in the head

And on the rival ship stood so proud a man
The captain such a lofty man
He laughed when he saw me a female captain
And laughed at my crew
At every woman- following man
I could have easily blown the ship
And that I did do immediately after
I shot his pants buttons with my gun
And they fell down to rollicking laughter

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum
I dare ye laddies, dare one come
For we ladies can't be outdone
Definitely not when we've got
Our bottle of rum ;-)

Skull, Crossbones And a Bottle O' Rum- Tales From the World of A Pirate

2008-08-29T23:04:00.000-07:00

Twas a dark stormy night
On the All Hallow's eve
That Viktor Groth steered his ship
Through the black tides of sea

From whence the storm
Had laid its seige
None had a hint or clue
Tis they new for sure
They'd be dead
Till the new morn was due

Afraid to lose his ship
Unwilling to lose the loot
Viktor called on the devil
'I shall make a tryst with you'

And so he lived to tell the tale
He lived to tell many more
The Devil's messenger on this earth
Fear of anyone who dared to row

Even the sirens turned their tails
He was cold to the warmth of love
What he preyed on- human hearts
Though anything human he'd long forgot

He lived with the ghosts
They formed his crew
And anyone foolish soon realized
Anyone who messes
With Viktor's crew
Is the one who surely dies

And then the day dawned anew
When Viktor saw Gail Remington
And at once remebered all
Their love when they were young

He cried out as her ship came near
For here was the ultimate test
He had to torture and to kill
The one he'd always loved best

As she was tied and brought onboard
His heart lurched at the memory
Sweet caresses, sweeter kisses
One fateful night at sea

So he proceeded with the knife
To scar what he had always cared about
But instead he cut his chest
And pulled his own beating heart out

'Take this and be happy'
He shouted for the world to hear
As he fell to his knees, fell into the sea
And disappeared

For lo my friend and tis the truth
A man can be the devil himself
But in the end wat one would do for love
Can wake the devil himself from hell

Study

2008-08-28T22:02:00.000-07:00

One could read a thousand word
Front to back and back again
With nothing being absorbed
With as yet an empty brain
One could spend time memorizing
Each word and each detail
And yet not have the inherent knowledge it takes
To ensure they do not fail
Why don't we take our malleable matter
This utterly dependable grey
And understand how it wants to learn
Such that we do not forget what we learn today
As important if not a whole lot more
Is how we study to how much
So be it according to the questions in the papers
Key word notes or anything else
Challenge yourself to study the best way you can
Ace your exams
And do nothing less.

Journals

2008-08-28T21:53:00.000-07:00

That most irritating of books
So filled by the history of my mistakes
So disgcraced by the details of manipulations
So hastened by the deadlines of marks
So anxiety-wrought by the little scratches
Cancellations
As neat as i could make it
It still isn't neat enough
To be the paragon of scientific virtue
I've been busy dreaming of
Perhaps if i spent a little less time
On thinking of change and betterment
And put my thoughts into action
There'd be a cause for contentment
For though not a perfect paragon
At least then i would find
Less enough cancellations
To bring me my peace of mind

Sorry

2008-08-28T10:21:00.000-07:00

Sorry I shouted that you didn't care
Sorry I painted you black
I had to hate you if I was to leave you
My love was the cause for that

Sorry I clung too much
Sorry I blamed you for selfishness
You were there when I needed you
And my insecurity's not a reason
To respect you as less

Sorry my darling I need you
You're my brother and my friend
And maybe you are the smarter one
For knowing this clearly even then.

Lithium

2008-08-28T10:15:00.000-07:00

You helped me through my worst
My friend whenever I needed one
You became the shadow I could lean on
I'm addicted to you, lithium

Maybe love's the spell you've put me under
When I'm with you I'm not the same
Withdrawal symptoms when I don't have you
Keep coming back for more
Again and again

Maybe I'd lose a part of myself
Maybe I'd just go on anyway
You were my lithium and not the drug
Who I do love
But in a yet undefined way.

B*tch

2008-08-20T09:05:00.000-07:00

(Fire on Nemesia- The B*tch)

One day it will happen

I'll scratch your heart out

Make you eat dirt

Let you drown in your tears

One day it will happen

You'll feel my verbal fist in your face

You'll sweat with emotion

You'll panic with disgrace

B*tches are one in a million

Their breed is too few

Lucky you've got one right in the mirror

Staring right back at you

Travellin in Da Rain

2008-08-08T04:39:00.000-07:00

Splish splash splosh
Got me saying 'Oh F*k'
When my brand white jeans
Got browned up in muck

I had to discard
My umberella when
In those wily winds
It got inverted again

Just as I got to the station
To my vast amount of irritation
The moisture had taken all the friction
Landing me flat on my back portion

Just then I had had enough
So i took my cell to call my car
Only the rain had flooded phone lines
So i had to take the train to Bandra

In the train I got wet again
Due to a dripping windcheater
Shivering with the cold
My teeth began to clatter

Relief came with my station
But alas it was too soon
My eye nearly got poked out
By an umberella of maroon

The drenched seats of the bus
Forced me to finally accept
When travelling in the rains
You get and you stay very wet

Unrequited

2008-08-08T04:33:00.000-07:00

Powerless to destroy
What i'm slowly being destroyed by
Is it enough to understand
Love is never enough to get by
Is it enough to accept the fact
These dreams will never see the light
Is respect enough
To sacrifice what i know deep inside
Is a higher love
What I was always aiming for
Or is it now going to be
My tool to help me survive?

The Ingenious Dunce

2008-07-31T12:29:00.000-07:00

A little high, a little low

We know not where the mind does go

So lauh it off and know just once

That 1 can be a genius even having been a dunce

I Knew But Yet I Didn't

2008-07-31T12:24:00.000-07:00

I knew all along
That's why I'm singing this song
I knew
But I didn't let myself know
That I knew

What I felt all along
Just wasn't true
You're just my friend
I don't love you

As confused as I felt
Chasing love
I went through hell
But I've had enough
I've let myself know
What I knew

All that I felt
Well it wasn't true
You're just my friend
I don't love you

So let us leave
And let us believe
Out there there is a one
Friends we are
And friend's we'll be
And that is all we'll be
For all our days under the sun

Romantic ramblings

2008-07-27T10:52:00.000-07:00

I danced around the notion

Of a true love's potion

A spell for the devotion

Of my devoted prince

I hunted for an aeon

Drew his world with crayon

My heart strings still play on

His jilted melody

In ages of clairvoyance

I say with flamboyance

I rejoice in the buoyance

Of love's airy victory

Wind of euphoria

2008-07-26T11:17:00.000-07:00

She blew the petals in her hand

She cared not if he loved her

All she knew was the ache inside

Rejoicing she lifted her arms to the sky

And felt herself carried up

On da wind of euphoria

Show

2008-07-16T11:51:00.000-07:00

Does he feel the same?
Does it show
If he loves me the same
How do I know?
Thoughts race through my brain
There they go
If he feels the same, then lord
Please just lt it show

This Is The One I Love

2008-07-16T11:43:00.000-07:00

This is the one I love

He's the one I've been dreaming of

I never quite gave us enough

But now I'm ready to fight for love

This is the one I love

And though the road might be tough

We'll be watched by the one above

Such is the case when you're in love

This is the one I love

Whom I'll never get enough of

Whom I am now going to give the shove

For I'm ready to face up to what I feel

This Love

Moving On

2008-07-07T09:34:00.000-07:00

How do you leave behind?
That which is already a part of you
How do you move on?
When someone's reached the heart of you
In dreams, thoughts, memories
No matter how one longs to be free
How does one say goodbye?
When one longs to say 'I love you.'

Insomniac?? Maybe

2008-07-01T13:01:00.000-07:00

Don't feel like eating
Sleep deserts me
Music befriends
Emotions arrest me
Listless, yet not quite
Thoughtless, this ain't right
In the cycles of day
This isn't the way
2 in the morn
Wat am i?
An owl
Silent night
The world is mine
But no, i'll settle for action
And leave my dreams
In the daylight when others work
Will I sleep then?
But no i must sleep
And i will
Prince Charming, Sandman,
escort me on my way
and let me not waste my day
Goodnight, Goodbye sweet world
Poetry has made a sleeper out of an insomniac girl

Tryin Again

2008-07-01T12:57:00.000-07:00

And Damn It I'm Trying Again

If I fall once more

I'll get up again

If I break once more

I'll mend it again

There's nuthin but new beginnins

Till there is the end

I'm human, I err, so what???

And Damn It I'm Tryin Again

Glorie

2007-09-24T10:07:00.000-07:00

Hmm so I'm in my final year of high school and all that...the big step towards adulthood...yea rite...graduation ceremonies and year books and proms... i can't understand what the big deal is anyways...its all a part of life, right? You have friends, dreams, plans- you choose one and try to hang on to the rest. Well. So celebrate it but don't expect me to go gaga over it. I just don't do gaga over a school I'm gonna be glad to get out of.
Suffocation with a pillow would be less claustrophobic- i mean blondes and jocks and your everyday average stereotypes...but I do have two good friends- two people I can trust and well if anything good happened while i was in school, they are it.
Who else would wake me up with a bucket of cold water thrown over my head or write a card with that cute guy's name on it addressed to me. They're gorgeous babes just like my mom and sis, but they're beautiful on the inside too. I on the other hand seem to have gotten a bit unbalanced on the beauty Vs brains scale. Is it any wonder the last guy i brought home went gaga over my sis- he was hang dog drooling which was when i asked myself 'So what did you see in him anyway' but he was half way out the door after my sister. Trouble is i live in the ever young Beverly hills. You look average and can solve a physics equation in 2 minutes= not a good social equation. Plus did i mention i tend to go crazy and am a give a damn loner.
But there's one thing i've promised myself- i'm gonna get myself dating a rocker if its the last thing i do, easier said than done right yea that's why they have that phrase- if only...
Seriously, even if i could just find that one guy who could understand me and be there for me... if only is rite!

Hey you want more of this, lemme kno and i'll provide the details of how i met Zack- my man...

If Only

2007-09-24T09:59:00.002-07:00

Shot in the head. Right before his very eyes. His own uncle shot his father in the head. His world collapsed and thinking only of survival, he fled. He fled and found his way to a stranger paradise- the glamour and dazzle of Beverly Hills- where looks are a façade and scheming minds plot horrible fates.
Now the cards are on the table. He is in an alien territory. His uncle has set gangsters after him and his only hope of survival is a sixteen year- old girl.
Are you prepared for what could happen?
This is a story of Glorie Madion and Zack Rodriguez, two people from opposite ends of the world who wondered the same question- 'If only they could find someone they could trust'. They are about to get a whole lot more than they bargained for...

Blue Banter of a Bored Brain

2007-09-24T09:59:00.001-07:00

Why? Why? Why? Why do I have to study? Why can’t I make a decision? Why does this vacation suddenly seem too short and unfulfilling? A vacation? Is that what I said? Hmmm, this heat must be making me lose my mind. I’ve had working days lighter than this vacation. And why? Because I have the utterly easy, simply accomplished (note the sarcasm) task of making a place for myself in the science stream. Whom have I got to blame? None other than my ambitious self, who doesn’t yet have a goal, mind you. Any wonder I’m getting lost in self contemplation and mindless self loathing. This lethargy is creeping over me like a warm quilt on a hot summer night- that’s right, totally unwanted. Work is looming up like tidal tsunami wave and I’m powerless to stop it cause this girl gets ruled by her emotions and feelings and right now this heart is screaming ‘lets party’ while this mind is screaming ‘you have to sit down and study’. Clash of the titans? No wonder I’m feeling so upset. Wouldn’t you be feeling it too? And then I think about anything other than the immediate problem- the truckload of study- I think about something abstract like lets say intelligence? Do I have any? That’s laughable. Well let’s see intelligence is common sense+ general knowledge right? Something that we depend on in crises that we land in because of lack of it in the first place. Very ironic, if I say so myself. I’m looking forward to using my intelligence later on, because right now it’s just not helping. Everyone considers themselves to be intelligent on some level- consciously or subconsciously but the fact is very few are truly and consistently intelligent. Everyone has intelligence but few have mastered the art of using it. Even Archimedes had his bouts of pure nuttiness like Eureka. And actually I prefer eccentricity over intelligence it adds such a delightful flavor to life. Intelligence is used to master life; I think eccentricity is used to play around with it. The perfect combination of both would make each day a wonder but I fear I get the latter more than the former.
Anyways, now I’ve managed to type away all my frustration and even I am not eccentric enough to want an all night excursion into the ‘wonderland of study your brain out’ (I sometimes worry about a central system overload, but heck at this rate I have nothing to fear, do I?) so anyways I’ll bid you goodnight and farewell. And pray this one time my intelligence reigns supreme over my eccentricity!

Three Times My Lady- I

2007-09-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

Chapter I
“Thank you so much. I really do not know what I would do without you. “Probably he did depend on her, then pray tell why he chose to ignore her most of the time, except when it came to saving his backside. Oh well, if this was all she got, then she would try to make do with it and be happy. Only her traitorous mind had other ideas.

Here she was- a talented, exceptionally intelligent student at Remington High. She had a wonderful life, wonderful friends and a wonderful future before her. She had never cared about guys and continued not to do so.

Her busy schedule and happening life did not afford her much time to spend ogling guys. Her future loomed ahead and her assignments and competitions took up more than her time. It was no joke being an A+++ student. However there was one exception- Craig. Craig Donovan. The boy who had blown her away, the moment she had laid eyes on him
.
The college bad boy right from his long unruly black locks to his black leather bomber to the stereotypical Harley parked outside. Yes, girls adored him. He had probably dated most of them even. But for her he had reserved a special post- that of his homework supplier.

The most intimate moment she had had with him was probably when her hands brushed against his as he took his completed assignment from her. Surprisingly, that too sent tingles down her spine though she was sure he hadn’t even noticed it.

Her college was a beautiful place. Greenery everywhere, very much in keeping with the small town she belonged to. She breathed in deeply as she took in the early morning scents- fresh dew on grass, the mingled fragrances of the flowers that dotted the rolling plains of the campus, the smell of the fresh earth beneath her. It was lovely and it made her sigh with satisfaction.

“Hi! Wait till you hear what I have to say. Andy finally asked out Jillian last night.” Ashley came up slapping her friend on the shoulder.

“He did?” Diana was incredulous, “Yes, and guess what… Jillian agreed.”

“Finally”, they both burst out laughing. It had become a longstanding joke on campus. They had even termed it “The Trials of Andrew”, for every time Andrew had ventured to ask Jillian out, something or the other had happened.

The first time Andy had backed out based on nerves. The second time he had taken advice from a friend and tried to compliment her stating in these words exactly “that’s a very nice nose you have. You haven’t had a nose job done, have you…?”

Poor Jillian had been shocked and had walked away right then. The third time- a letter he wrote to her full of romantic musings found its way into a teacher’s locker and the teacher started thinking one of the faculty members secretly admired her.

And was very confused indeed when he didn’t respond to her flirting in quite the way she had hoped. The fourth time he had tried to woo her Romeo Juliet style by getting a ladder placed near her dorm and singing to her in the moonlight.

Unluckily, the matron had been there and when she opened the windows to glare at him, he got so shocked and surprised the poor guy fell off the ladder, nearly breaking his back.

Just then they saw Jillian approaching. “Hello, speak of the angel and the angel appears. We heard the news.” Diana said. “You’ll too?” Jillian said smiling.

“So how did he finally do it?” Diana asked. “Well…. that day when he sang to me from the ladder, I was really taken. Then I couldn’t help but feel sorry when I heard from the matron that he had landed in the sickroom thanks to multiple injuries from falling off the ladder.

I went there to give him my condolences and the guy is so sweet, he actually said it didn’t matter.

Then we got talking and he apologized for that rude remark which was the worst compliment I have ever heard. But then he said that I took his breath away and he asked me to go with him for the movie “Something’s Got to Give.”

How could I resist?’ “Was it because of the movie or the guy?” Jillian cheekily asked. “Oh. I’m surprised you need to ask. Of course the movie.” They burst out into laughter. “Seriously the guy. He is just too-o-o sw-e-e-e-t. “Saying so she went away, laughing.

“So now, what about your dilemma?” Ashley turned to Diana and asked her with a smirk. “My dilemma? I don’t have any dilemma. What are you talking about?’

“Tall, dark and handsome…anything registering?” “Oh that one. Nope, the only thing he wants from me is his homework.” “Give yourself a break. Does he even know how much you like him?”

Ashley was serious. “No Ashley. The A’s he receives are his own hard work. How will he come to know?”

“Stop being sarcastic. Men can be pretty obtuse, especially one with as much female fans as has. It’s a bummer he is the only one you have even given a second thought to.

2007-09-24T09:49:00.000-07:00

Difference- what I want to make in the world
Different- what I am and how I’m viewed
Differently- the way you’ll have to absorb this story
I’m Kiran Rodricks- nineteen year old dreamer bordering on psychopath as some of my friends like to put it. And right now I’m starting to empathize with them. How else could I have landed myself in the situation which I’m currently facing? Increase the view lens- to the left of my head a bit further- ah! That’s it right there- say hi! Actually it would be better if you don’t, that uniformed guy holding a gun to my head might not give so eager a response, come to think of it. I would say hi but yeah get the camera a bit closer – there you see- A grade steel- reinforced handcuffs. I could give you a sideways namaste – something I learnt in yoga. I used to wonder where that would be useful. Guess everything happens for a reason.
This particular mess even I can’t believe I landed myself in. It was an accident, it was raining. Anyone who lives in Mumbai knows we have the worst traffic pattern in the world. I had just been driving home from a party, yeah so I had a consumed a little alcohol but you would hardly say I’m drunk. I’ve already dropped my friends off at their places but me? No, I had to squeeze in just one more jam up for the day.
So it was raining, which had considerably reduced the visibility and smoked up the screens. I just got my license a month back, so I’m a novice at driving. Iris by Goo Goo Dolls came on the radio and I couldn’t help dreaming about the one. Next thing I knew it headlights were approaching me at full speed. We both tried to swerve away realizing the impending doom. I managed to stay on the road but the other car veered off. It crashed into a tree. I being the complete madcap I am, and not realizing the gravity of the situation stopped the car and went to see if I could help. I had managed to unlock the car and went to check if he was alright. No sooner had I touched his bleeding collar than, I felt a gun in my back and “Please, step out with your hands up over your head.” Or something like that in Marathi. It then hit me how I must look and I panicked, I tried to run away. The only result of that being the officer jamming me up against the car and now actually thinking I’m up to no good, having handcuffed me and pressing me to the side of the car now barking away in Marathi, such that I simply cannot understand what he is saying and that’s just increasing the snarl of frustration on his face.
I start praying hard. Just then I feel a bulb light up in my head. I would get one phone call, it

Heaven

2007-09-24T09:43:00.000-07:00

Through life we search for a deeper meaning
The arrogance of a firm belief that we are here for more
What if this life is but an interlude?
And the real journey only starts when our bodies are no more

No one knows, so many try guessing
At the reality behind the smoke of infinity
While others wonder if heaven is just a feeling
That embraces you
When you know that all is right with your world

Where this road of consequence leads
What turn our decisions could take
As our mind tries to grasp the fundamental truths
It’s the conviction of spirit onto which we hang on

2007-09-24T09:35:00.000-07:00

Through it all we shall grow
We shall fall down but to rise
Never to self defeat
Bring the sunshine in the skies
Sing the song with a tear
While they point at you
Unafraid, unproud
Compassion all we know
Speak a word to listen
Lose something to miss it
Life the bird may fly away
Enjoy what is still in it
Weak, weary, wounded
Shall march on in the light
Not a thing shall dent the will
To fall in love with life

Blazon's Court

2007-09-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

In Blazon's court there grew a girl
Tall and proud and fair
As by a fence a young boy drew
Enchanted by her hair
As she danced and drew him out
From his solitary cove
In the hands of fate a friendship grew
That blossomed into love
Twas the thorns that men hath made
That drew the two apart
Her string tied to another kite
As dictated by the stars
Through life and worlds they roamed about
Led by time and destiny
Till once more they met wisened
Experience had set them free
White the hair on their heads
But the easel gleamed a page anew
Souls took refuge at last
In the music of their hearts

Orkut Honesty

2007-08-25T10:20:00.000-07:00

I'm eighteen going on thirty
The girl in the pic ain't me
Specs, braces, moustache
Is what you'll see
If you catch a glimpse of me

I'm not rich, I barely survive
I live off my parent's trust fund
I'm spoilt, educated grabage
I do nothing for no one

I love philosophy, politics, news
I'll pester you for your views
By the time I've said
All I have to say
You'll be begging to be locked away

This is the truth being confessed by me
The first time online just for you
Wanna kidnap me? Go ahead
Don't say that i didn't warn you....

( What happened with Adnan is really sad. We must all take care that no one should take advantage of us...Have fun. Be safe. Peace.)

Dreams

2007-08-25T10:05:00.000-07:00

Sinking sand of honeyed memories
Might well be my demise
Dragging me into a vortex of lust
As soon as I shut my eyes
Hunger for things I tasted
But to be stolen away
An automaton, forced cognition
Night blends into day
I am no longer of myself
My being has amplified
Being broken up into fragments
By the intensity in your eyes
But the dark wouldn't blind you
It would let you combine
With the past, present and future
No longer confined by light

Freedom

2007-08-23T09:22:00.000-07:00

Lunacy, mania, euphoria
Were you to classify
Unexplainable joy
Unconditional love
For inability to understand
Makes you wonder
How?

In a field of sunshine
Amidst gardens of peace
I'll be dancing
The tune of heaven

In a lab of anxiety
I shall challenge science
By teaching apparatus
How to sing

In a bus of weary
I'll give in to temptation
And offer passengers
My bread

Might you judge me
Scrutinize
It wouldn't matter
For I am free
Unbothered
Unhindered
By the prejudice
In your eyes...

Feed

2007-08-23T09:15:00.000-07:00

Hands up, outstretched
Hands curved in need
As two tears poured
I felt a heart speak
Those too tired
Too jaded
Smiled
Like blossoming flowers
In the noon day heat
Leaving the drudge
For an instant
For an act of love

What warm breeze
Would lift one high
Than a sigh
Of satisfaction

But not everyone
Can be fed
As the drunk lay
Oblivious
To the aroma
Of hot wadas

Indifference

2007-08-21T11:13:00.000-07:00

Were I to stand
Away
From danger
In the shadows of cries
Unheard
Unheeded
What kind of human would I be?

Were I to step
Aside
As injustice
Had its way
With men
What kind of citizen would I be

Were I to understand
Yet ignore
The pain
The suffering
The need
Why was I educated?
If it was of no use to me?

India- of the Hindus

2007-08-21T11:05:00.000-07:00

(India's point of view)
Hello! You people fighting
India's mine india's mine
Hindu-stan
Khali-stan
Maybe even
Islam-istan
Guju-stan
Isai-stan?
Have you ever tried uniting?
Or have I fed such idiots
They listen to fundamentalism
Without asking their Mother
What she wants
I'm telling you
Right now if you listen
You nuts are beautiful
You'll are my babies
And like every mom
I love all of you'll equally
Why do you fight
Mutilate me in your hatred?
Do you not know
A mother's love is enough
For all her progeny
With more to spare
Like any loving mother
I shall forgive you
But how can you live
Happily
Knowing you're hurting me so?

Mother

2007-08-21T10:33:00.000-07:00

Mother!
Forgive them
They know not what they do
They're lead
Like blind mice
Into a pathos
Pandora's box

Mother!
Give me strength
To look beyond their faults
And give them the love
They need
To make it through

Mother!
I know they beat us
Delusioned by
Superiority
They restrain
Exploit
Subdue our cries
But beneath that
Tough exterior
Is a tiny boy
Crying to be loved

Mother!
They fight
Like insolent brats
And it pains my heart
To see
How much they'll do
To destroy
Their insecurity of
Inferiority

Mother!
Oh watch out
They understand
Only what they choose
Never realising
In the tentacles of revenge
They tighten their own necks
With the noose

Mother!
We're all your children
Help me to love brother
And through loving myself
Help him to know
The joy of loving one another

Connection with Karma

2007-08-19T09:27:00.000-07:00

Maybe I'm a child
In that when I sleep
The dreams I receive
Seem to beckon to me
Of a far away place
That I used to know sometime
On a stairway to heaven
Connection to a past life
Maybe I know the one
Who looks back at me
From the fog
Maybe its not just a dream
But reality repeated
Deja Vu
In a twirl, circular whimsy
When past and present collide
Maybe the one who is my friend
Is the one inside
We know, we love, we cherish
We give we laugh, we perish
But maybe we're preserved
As figments of imagination
Unseen, unheard...

2007-08-18T11:37:00.000-07:00

Raag Malhar
As the rain poured down
From a gray sky
The world went wild
And the youth got high
People danced, cheered, entertained
The more i risked, the more I gained
Calling my judge an ape
Dancing made all of them gape
As I made a face with tape
Compared monkeys to guys
Nothing was too much for one
To express, to believe in oneself
With the help of my friends
And one special monkey
I came third and proved
That we smarties are really sexy!

Friendship

2007-06-29T12:00:00.001-07:00

Friendship, friendship
It’s the greatest gift you’ve given to me
Through every hardship
It’s the light with the power to set me free
I walk in the sunshine
When your hand is in mine
All the cobwebs of despair
Just fade away
Every journey every wandering
I know I’m protected
Coz you’re love is with me
And wherever we go
No matter the distance
It warms me to know
There’s someone like you in this world
Whatever we do
Through all of life’s lessons
You’re the sweetest one I’ll ever know

Love Song for Prince

2007-06-29T11:46:00.000-07:00

Like spirit. Like faith,
A voice calling my name
Deep inside, does reside
A love so great
Neither touch nor feel
Yet sensation makes me reel
One place I can enter
Has no physical state
Send me flying
Lift me high
Prince of Dreams
And I…
Shall dwell forever
Where none can see
In my heart and mind
In the essence that I be

When I Went To Mars

2007-06-29T11:41:00.000-07:00

When Diana went to Mars
She outdazzled all their powers
And drove them aliens insane
Till they besieged the earth reign
'What can we do' the humans asked
'Tell her to leave our planet Mars'
Her friends called 'We miss you come back'
Earth is under Martian attack
Didn't you read the news every day
When have I ever cared what that had to say
But here i come and so she came
Scaring all the Martians away
She got a medal and was declared hero
To which she said 'I really should go more often you know'

Trials of Gymming

2007-06-12T00:52:00.000-07:00

The mat lay there innocuous
As I slowly descended on its warmth
Never realising what I was in for
Not having been forewarned
And I lifted and I stretched
As she held my legs up high
With naught but a gleam in her eyes
As I opened my mouth to sigh
Nah, but no I must not give up
Up and down I must go on
Till my legs can be felt no more
And the ground can be laid upon
1 to 20 again and again
The numbers drifted from my mouth
As muscles I didn't know I had
Began in chorus to scream and shout
But in the midst of this pain
Laughter was to be embraced
As she tried to position me once more
My shoe came out and fell on her face!
As it lay there on the ground
It gave me a conspirator's smile
We'll be back for more I know
I've given you the chance to rest awhile
She then proceeded to stretch me and fold
Like a choice piece of meat about to be sold
All in all it was quite a time
The trials of gymming for those abs of mine!