In Times Of Fun

Want to remember the rush of the wind
The echo of my voice in the sky
Connecting to so many passers by
In the form of nods and smiles
Of love mutiplied manifold
So alive
So splendid
One after the other
Less sleep than I've ever had
But I don't tire
I crave for more
And more not in material
Not in moment
But in sensation
Just from within
Elemental within me
I finally accept my calling
To become the fire I am

Black

Rush of wind to my side
Rustle of cloth in my ear
Flesh against mine
Guiding pushing prodding
I am in the dark
And there is no one
I'd rather have
Than you by me

World spins unbalanced
Ground slides beneath me
Precarious and blurred
But I am not scared
You are by me

This exam will not happen again
My brain's weeping 'I can not'
But my heart's smiling still
Calm, serene, knowing
Knowing you are by me

Flawed

Exposed to my eyes
Every inch of your insecurity
You turn away awaiting
Embarrassed
How could you feel so?
When you're with me

I care not for perfection
Its you I see
You as you are
Whom I choose to have

My love is not blind
It is unconditional
As long as you are mine
My friend, my love
What more need I ask for?

Music

Rhythm flew through his veins
Forceful yet gentle magic
Electricity turning the keys
So basic so ethereal
Calling out the unthought emotions
What is this connection?
What is this language?
Whispering endearments
And I reach automatically
Who is this?
Who knows my void?
Though he doesn't know me
Who has laid claim to my deepest thoughts?
And I know its not just me
Oh! To have such power
Such...
There are no words for once
I shudder
And press replay...

Intoxication

The unruly sun would burn
My light starved skin
The free earth would run
A balm
To my numb broken hands
These legs would stretch and run
When I would finally stand
Beyond these gates
Beyond these walls
Beyond these bars
The sweet pleasure of falling on my knees
And embracing my newly found earth
The intoxication of freedom
Oh! The intoxication of freedom!

One Night in the Ward

Screams fill the room
Air heavy with desperation
A voice pleads ‘No more no more’
As the owner drowns in perspiration

Mom craves the sleep her body shuns
Needles become one with her veins
Wires connect and disconnect
There’s much to gain
She accepts the pain

The one thing they felt was theirs
They give up to those in coats of white
Loss of control
The smallest task
Something they just can’t get right

One stretches as they tell her
Agony wracking its way into sound
Another drinks ‘poison’ when they force her
Dreaming of six feet underground
Sometimes a deep sleep seems so much better…

Mother smiles her way through
She shields me from the worst of it
She doesn’t think about where she is
She tells me her dos and don’ts list

She sees red wine in injected iron
She finds humor in the tiniest gaffe
She finds strength with my arms around her
As both of us give in to the urge to laugh

The hospital is a strange place for friendship and for love
Friends show, strangers care, families don’t hesitate
The world seems so vivid when you’re trying not to give up
On a life where there’s so much left to appreciate

So Obvious

I was played for a fool
Gullible as I could be
To what the world seemed to know
But I couldn't seem to see

Sweet words can fool you
'I'm being honest' just a line
You can end up being used
By that 'honesty' in time

Who do I direct my anger at?
The fooler or my better sense
As helpless as my heart's always been
The wound opens up again

Helpless heart but not helpless mind
It will protect me this time
People walk in, walk by or leave
But I'll never again so easily believe