In Times Of Fun

Want to remember the rush of the wind
The echo of my voice in the sky
Connecting to so many passers by
In the form of nods and smiles
Of love mutiplied manifold
So alive
So splendid
One after the other
Less sleep than I've ever had
But I don't tire
I crave for more
And more not in material
Not in moment
But in sensation
Just from within
Elemental within me
I finally accept my calling
To become the fire I am

Black

Rush of wind to my side
Rustle of cloth in my ear
Flesh against mine
Guiding pushing prodding
I am in the dark
And there is no one
I'd rather have
Than you by me

World spins unbalanced
Ground slides beneath me
Precarious and blurred
But I am not scared
You are by me

This exam will not happen again
My brain's weeping 'I can not'
But my heart's smiling still
Calm, serene, knowing
Knowing you are by me

Flawed

Exposed to my eyes
Every inch of your insecurity
You turn away awaiting
Embarrassed
How could you feel so?
When you're with me

I care not for perfection
Its you I see
You as you are
Whom I choose to have

My love is not blind
It is unconditional
As long as you are mine
My friend, my love
What more need I ask for?

Music

Rhythm flew through his veins
Forceful yet gentle magic
Electricity turning the keys
So basic so ethereal
Calling out the unthought emotions
What is this connection?
What is this language?
Whispering endearments
And I reach automatically
Who is this?
Who knows my void?
Though he doesn't know me
Who has laid claim to my deepest thoughts?
And I know its not just me
Oh! To have such power
Such...
There are no words for once
I shudder
And press replay...

Intoxication

The unruly sun would burn
My light starved skin
The free earth would run
A balm
To my numb broken hands
These legs would stretch and run
When I would finally stand
Beyond these gates
Beyond these walls
Beyond these bars
The sweet pleasure of falling on my knees
And embracing my newly found earth
The intoxication of freedom
Oh! The intoxication of freedom!

One Night in the Ward

Screams fill the room
Air heavy with desperation
A voice pleads ‘No more no more’
As the owner drowns in perspiration

Mom craves the sleep her body shuns
Needles become one with her veins
Wires connect and disconnect
There’s much to gain
She accepts the pain

The one thing they felt was theirs
They give up to those in coats of white
Loss of control
The smallest task
Something they just can’t get right

One stretches as they tell her
Agony wracking its way into sound
Another drinks ‘poison’ when they force her
Dreaming of six feet underground
Sometimes a deep sleep seems so much better…

Mother smiles her way through
She shields me from the worst of it
She doesn’t think about where she is
She tells me her dos and don’ts list

She sees red wine in injected iron
She finds humor in the tiniest gaffe
She finds strength with my arms around her
As both of us give in to the urge to laugh

The hospital is a strange place for friendship and for love
Friends show, strangers care, families don’t hesitate
The world seems so vivid when you’re trying not to give up
On a life where there’s so much left to appreciate

So Obvious

I was played for a fool
Gullible as I could be
To what the world seemed to know
But I couldn't seem to see

Sweet words can fool you
'I'm being honest' just a line
You can end up being used
By that 'honesty' in time

Who do I direct my anger at?
The fooler or my better sense
As helpless as my heart's always been
The wound opens up again

Helpless heart but not helpless mind
It will protect me this time
People walk in, walk by or leave
But I'll never again so easily believe

Spoilt For Choice

She stood on the shoulders of giants
They called themselves her parents
What they'd gone through never more apparent
As she counted what she had that they hadn't

Make your way through this world my girl
His hand on her brow adored her
The affection viewed as pressure by her eyes
How much did he want for her?

Here she was in a world so large, so bright
So many things to do if she could just do them right
How did she ever choose when she didn't know what she'd like?

Degree after degree, course after course
The print flew by her, the print flew from her
She forgot where she was

This is what they do I must do it too
I can't stagnate I must do something
Years of work still gave her nothing

She was unhappy with it all
Still too afraid to stall
Afraid she'd lose it all
What if there was nothing to lose?

So she drifted ahead like a log at sea
Till she couldn't take it anymore
And resigned at last from what
Had never been hers to do

She took the year she should have taken
She broke the monotony she should have broken
She finally stood up and let herself awaken
To a choice she should have always taken

Though spoilt for choice I may be
I've got the guts to choose whats meant for me
Even if it means I have to step aside
Instead of a formula stated by someone else
Listen to the voice I have inside...

Bad Marriage

The slides ley broken in her fingers
Shreds like nerves torn apart
It was her fault again
For listening to her obstinate heart

The image stayed in her mind
This wife was never mine
A smile which had no joy
A will that had to be moulded in time

Again and again, trying to convince oneself
Its okay I can do this, I can stand up to the test
Then falling and hoping the next would hurt much less
Holding on to the person you used to be
When everything about you is something else you don't recognize
Lord she wouldn't wish this on an enemy
Not once, not twice, her recurring demise

Try to hold on, the voices said
Try to smile, scolded her heart
Try to put yourself together
When all of her felt torn apart

Was she supposed to care at all
About something that brought her
Naught but despair
Oh where was that girl
Who thought nothing was impossible?
She's right here
She's right here
She's right here

Her Majesty The Queen

She rushed inside her quarters
A lady and a knight
Would she be the delicate?
Would she lead them to the fight?

She'd ignored it far too long
She felt fear at death
Her heart stormed
Her head hurt
What if she was no good at it?

She closed her eyes to fight the tremor
And a picture materialized
The lands burnt to cinder
The innocents brutalized

She had to fight for all of them
She had to stand up and be
Acknowledge who the hell she was
There was no room for anxiety

So she listed her resources
Cool precision, steady strategy
She had made her share of mistakes
The greatest was hesitancy

She knew her strength and weakness
She had an army on her side
Who she believed in
On who she could rest her life

At the head she placed herself
A coward wasn't the one to lead
As the army surrounded to protect to death
Her Majesty The Queen

CAT

Miaow!

Deprivation Vs Depravation

I see it in the leers
I hear it in the jeers
A playboy is not so much a gigolo
As a hottie may be a slut
Call 'him' whatever you want to
The world will view it as anything but
If even rapes can be blamed on both
And both can be victimized
Why is a girl's rep so much more in jeopardy
If her sex life gets publicized
Not like she spends every day
Pinching guys' butts
Or calling them a tasty piece of ass
When did we girls accept
To let this discrimination pass
Sex is just that
Not the monopoly of just one
Let them do what the heck they want to
Its their will
Let them have their fun
There's a world of difference
In will vs force
That makes all the difference
Between Deprivation and Depravation

Personality Contest @ UICT

I'm the devil in disguise
And my friends would agree
Torturing people cause I can
Is not a stretch for me

How else would a guy
Be chased around a stage
With a whip in the hand
Of a girl who could have her way?

How else would a guy
Be made to jump around and prance
In his hand a fairy wand
So he could do the fairy dance

Maybe a three foot baby doll
Incongruous with a six foot man
As he tried to ask me
For my very cynical hand

A girl held her gun to the head
Of a disbelieving guy
Told him to shut the f* up
Or she'd blow his brains sky high

The flavors of a condom
One poor guy went on to explain
To spread AIDS awareness
Knowledge of product was his aim

One had to decorate himself with lipstick
One shed light on the alternative use of balls
Besides handy biceps,
He used them for - ahem!
He had some gall ;)

Now you might wonder what was my hand in this
Where did this happen, you might fret
It was at my college Personality Contest
Which I helped arrange ;)
Which I don't think I'm ever likely to forget :)

I must admit

I must admit it now
The world is getting scary and how

Ladies gifting politicians chuddies
Illiterates trying to solve our worries

Jail being like finishing school for politics
Or rather where they hang out for kicks

Twin elephants Vs the Gators
Once the votes come in
There are the 'I'll see you laters'

Minorities like targets waiting
Vote bangers never quitting complaining

Insanity needs an antidote
Before half of us go in to vote

I must admit
I need to stop writing this shit

And register as a voter
Not like the world can get any madder
(or can it?)

A Healthy Sense of Humor

A healthy sense of humor
Will not give one a tumor
May give one a spasm
But will save from one black chasm
May send one a bit higher
As the heart thus inspired
May do a jig and guffaw
But laughing is not against the law
Laugh and thou shalt be redeemed
Is a commandment by me
Self expression ain't a crime
Ridicule everyone in time
Life does it anyway
Be he straight or be he gay
He'll be laughing if he may
Do the hell what he wants
Stick one finger up in the air
Prance about like a clown
And laugh merrily 'I don't care'
As long as no one's getting hurt
I'll fulfill my tryst with mirth ;)

The Devil Loves Me

I can't explain it
I don't know what to say
Its not normal
Its downright creepy
5 times he's come
5 times he's claimed to love me
I have not run
I have not simply stood
I have loved him back
I have given him a chance
And he's not let me down
He's redeemed himself
Am I to love the devil?
Is the devil the on who loves me?
Why do I not scream in terror?
But feel a thill down my spine
At the ultimate bad boy
Hotter than hell
Fallen angel
Am I to sleep with a smile on my face
As I wonder if I'll dream once more
That The Devil Loves Me

Entrance

Enter another dimension now
This one's being set on fire
Enter another reality now
This one's being burnt with denial

Block block block
Worry worry worry
Take it easy for the heck of it
Hurry hurry hurry

Voids cannot be filled with duty
Hearts cannot be melted with prayer
Just inject me with anaesthetic
Let me be unaware

Ah! But I won't need to face the doom
I'm entering another dimension now
This one's being set on fire
I need to save myself somehow

Being a Team

....

Being a Team

By turns everything

By turns fair
By turns sensitive
By turns a steamroller
By turns aloof
By turns the smartest
By turns a blonde
By turns effervescent
By turns all air out
By turns decided
By turns confused
By turns the limelight
By turns a recluse
By turns gregarious
By turns timid and shy
By turns logical
By turns idealistic
By turns optimistic
By turns pessimistic
By turns valuing cash
By turns knowing it buys nothing lasting
By turns loving God
By turns forgetting him completely
By turns keeping love my greatest ambition
By turns knowing i'm self sufficient
By turns needing the same
By turns craving variety
By turns cherishing madness
By turns all sobriety
By turns so many different things
By turns who wants to hold onto memory
By turns I wish I remembered more
By turns thankful school is over
By turns wishing it were on
By turns feeling great connections everywhere
By turns knowing I'll never truly belong
By turns feeling potential dynamic
By turns feeling I'm always static
By turns opening up and telling all
By turns wondering whether to be honest at all
By turns cherishing life and reality
By turns all i want is the world in my sleep
By turns so many different people
I am
By turns everything

Reinforcements

No research-
Coz I don't like lab
I wish I did
But I just feel irritated in it
Bound by technique (i hate rules)
Enslaved by my own temperament
And it doesn't come that naturally
(I don't like things that don't come naturally)
I picture myself getting bored and frustrated
Wishing there was something with faster results
Where i could see more getting executed
Perhaps at most I'd like to chronicle
The current work in my writing
At least it'd be an outlet
I could come up with fantastic ideas i know
I'm good at that
But even now tell me to make a presentation
(read research articles)
I'll yawn in your face
Tell me to make a sales strategy
Or a business plan
I'm suddenly all over the place
My pricing skills have to be improved tho
And sure right now if I make myself think that way
Seeing falciparum under a microscope
Or going to Africa to research HIV may seem like fun
But imagination is sorely overdone
My other side argues
Picking up the phone and calling someone
Doesn't seem that much fun at all (networking)
But when I was an editor I loved doing it
I guess its all about the need, recognition and of course the pay
I love seeing new places- maybe thats why Africa seems so nice
A microscope for 2o years- oh yeah suddenly I'm screaming help!
A centrifuge, a chromatograph, a colorimeter
Help! Help! Help!!!
Is it fun tho?
latest equipment? Hmmm????
Wouldn't I like to be at the forefront of new discovery???
The truth is its not all glory
Its damn hard work
And when it comes down to it
Where would you rather damn hard work?
The research point of view or the business point of view
And i guess there is my answer
I would prefer not to damn hard work at all...lolz!
Think Divya Think!
Would I rather get picked on by a boss at research or business?
Would i rather get up early sleep late for reasearch or for business?
Would I apply all my energy and not feel that bad for research or for business?
Would i rather endure politics at research or at business?
Would I be more willing to solve problems at research or at business?
Would i cut the crap and do what I have to at research or at business?
Would I not feel resentful at reasearch or at business?
Would I laugh more and for the right reasons at research or at business?
Would I breathe easier at research or at business?
Would I be able to multitask and have a life?
Would I love my life more if I took up research or business?
Would I feel my potential being utilized at research or at business?
Well considering all the answers except the last are unequivocally business
I guess industry after B. Pharm is fine by me... ;)

Ten years from now

This is an experiment
My mistress shall help me find a wife
My hobby shall tell me what I want from life
Poetry come to my rescue
After my B. Pharm, what shall I do?

Okay I really don't want to study more
In all honesty, I can't seem to put my mind to it
And there is an old saying- you understand when you do it
Even if there is a global crisis
If I work I'll learn more (just like a course)
Colo, Cogno, Ceutics, Biotech
Research for the impatient is a bore

I don't see myself motivated enough
Though I'd love to find a cure to malaria or diabetes
Put me in a lab
And I'm much more likely
To write another one of these
(Saying how i must get out)

Rather than be the nincompoop
Who loathes lab while longing to be Shakespeare
Industry will fascinate me if merely the cycle
That helps rake in the profit each year

Its so much more practical and a lot more versatile
I can choose to do as I please
And I can find which position I like best
And put in the best of me

If I change my mind (which I doubt)
I can always do a course later
But right now I want to be in the midst of things
I want to do something that will put me in it all
I want to see the industry
And I want to learn now
What am I most compatible with
What interests me the most
What can i excel at
In reaching quality drugs to those who need them

Drunk

Sweet swirl of liquid
Fragrance intoxicates me
Devilish warm

Soak in the drop
It floods my senses
Ah! What a rush!

The night cuddles me
I feel the wind beneath
No longer grounded
I'm high!

Who cares about balance?
When you can do the crazy dance
Give me just one more
I'll show you what it means to be free

She cares

I know she cares
She can't help it
If she's a million years away
What the hell!
It seems like everyone is

I know I have to
I can't help it
I don't do anything
I don't want to
Depends on my mood

These red eyes
Like my soul is bleeding
Don't jump to conclusions
Its just too much reading
I can't help it if i chase fantasy
Its the only way I know to time travel

Rambling on and on
Its 1 :30 what the hell is going on?
So sweet this black and white
But I must really say good nite
What the hell
Maybe just one more...

Static

Freeze the time
I'm out of sync
I don't want to rhyme
But its how I think
Do what is easy
Or blend myself in the dust
Not so easy for you
But its the only thing I trust
Just flowing
My way to get back
To where I need to be
My truest way
To get out of me
And change this static moment
To a dynamic creation

Migraine- A Tale of Computer Addiction

I've plugged in my brain
To its gigabytes
Slave to an addiction
Minutes become hours become days
Staring at pixels
Now they merge into one
They blur as a deformed reality
My virtual craze
No longer cognizant of that around me
No longer me
I'm anime
I'm a robot
I'm nonexistent
Colors, noises, prerogatives
All so much easier
I've escaped
And now I've lost
Time, Energy, Reason
Over the score that doesn't matter
I'm lost in the blur
Migraine

Complicated

Uncomprehensible logic
An irony so tragic
All calling for a little magic
An attempt at understanding

Gals can't escape emotion
Guys give logic their devotion
Both feel lust in good proportion
But love can get demanding

Its Mr. Right Vs. Mr. Right Now
Soul mates find each other anyhow
When you find yours- you know somehow
And then you leap hoping you'll have that safe landing

...Your happily ever after ending.... ;) ;) ;)

LMAO

Its time we get over it
What we did we did was shit
Could never have believed it
U did ur time i took my hit
Its time we just laugh over it
We'll keep it as a memory bit
Its time we get over it ;)
So I'm LMAO- hah hahahah hahahah hahah hahahah hahah
Who could ever have believed it????

Study Smart

Study hard he says
I say I'd rather study smart
Wasting time to maximize it
Is truly an in born art ;)

Sleep to wake up to the dawn
With a need to see salvation
A burst of passion headed my way
To make the best of education

I have time- to faf and play
To share my self with those around
Studying is maxing ur mind and minning your time
And not to your books be bound

Back to The Beginning

(This has been recollected from a dream. At the time it was startling in its intensity and detail)
She' d seen everything
Done everything
Tired and jaded from exhaustion
She weighed her options
As she flew across the sea
Danced along its surface really
Startling beauty against the setting sun
Summer, winter, heaven, hell...
Every portal was open to her
Mars, Pluto, ...Atlantis...
Boring! reechoed in her mind
Hitler, Chanakya, Cesar, Rameses...
Damn! She'd seen all of them
She hated repeating herself
Then suddenly an idea came
And she smiled
Automatically
Darn it! Who would have thought?
She smiled once more
And magically blushed
She knew where she needed to be
With the one heart that had captured hers
Before it had given out
She'd teach him to be strong- just like her
She'd show him marvellous things
She'd see him smile- still innocent
And thoroughly taken with her idea
She went to be a nanny- if you could call her that
To the small boy who called to her
From right across the shore

(The girl's name is Dinah. She is an immortal who has vast power - teleportation, prescience and superhuman strength to name a few. She features in most of the legends with different names and laughs at those who consider her a heroine for despite her basic nature, she feels she can never give back as much as she has been given. She loves living amongst humans and changing base now and then. Playful and loving, she is at crossroads in the 21st century where she really does not know what to do with her life. Before she makes that decision, she will take a break by becoming a nanny to the child, the man she most loved used to be and taking him on her secret journeys. He will grow up to be the most widely read author in the world.)

The Birth of Fire

(Disha has been a naughty girl all day- only reading in bed and not doing anything she said she would. Her mom comes home and finding the place a mess, rages out - shouting up and down the house. Disha uses her choice escape- sleep where she can drown out the voice and the momentary guilt. However she has given her body enough rest to change to the full version of Fire- a change she is not prepared for but must come to terms with somehow)

She found herself in shadow
Huddling in the dark
Voices shouting all around her
Intensifying
She shivered and burnt in the same instant
She tried to sleep but the peace wouldn't come
Tossing and turning she tried to drown out the sensation
Of heat prickles climbing up her spine like angry snakes
And spreading like a quick fever to the rest of her
Burning the sinew and cartilage in its wake
The pain- the burning pain
And then she became all numb
For she couldn't feel a thing
But it wasn't over yet
Ropes of fire coiled within her
Replacing what they had destroyed
And she arose with renewed vigor
To take a look at herself
Through eyes that shot out flames
She smiled
This would take getting used to
Living breathing flame stood in the mirror
Tendrils of livid orange surrounding her face
Features and body defined by the flame
She wrinkled her nose in disgust
As she finally got the smell of something burning
She was standing, what would the voices say?
About the remnants of what used to be her room

Eyes

He asked her again
'Will you marry me?'
She denied him
'Not till I have eyes to see.'

Providence was fair
Fate offered her a prize
A call to give her vision
A brand new pair of eyes

She opened them to see
A most unbearable sight
He was as blind as she'd been
She could not be his wife

He left in tears and wrote her
To finally cut off their ties
'Take care of the pair you're using now
They used to be my eyes.'

The only thing I've ever loved

(A Vampire's Love- inspired from Twilight- Edward to Bella)

Forever isn't even close
To how long I'd wish you to be mine
But I don't want to kill
The only thing I've ever loved

You don't realize
What you ask of me
Too selfless to keep you by my side
Too selfish to relenquish your love
I need you here with me

Just a bit longer
Restrain this desire
Bind it with reason
I cannot take you
Cannot make you mine
I may eat you

I've waited for so long
Sweet strength don't desert me
You are yet mine my love
Till my senses leave me

Safe with me
Protected from my monster
You are my light, my life, my hope
The only thing I've ever loved

Just For The Moment

She danced like a wild thing
On air she felt her heart sing
She’d given away everything
For one moment’s joy
She knew this wouldn’t last
She had to act so fast
Take everything then make it the past
For she couldn’t trust the boy
One more leap
Nothing too deep
Just a memory she could keep
Alive for the moment still

The Mummy

(This is one of my fav films. I can see it an endless number of times. So I decided to write sumthin usin it as the inspiration)
She knew the place deep in her heart
It was where she was meant to be
He was the one who could take her there
But he was her enemy

Unwillingly they made a tryst
For the adventure and the gold
They were naught to know the surprise
Which their journey would have in store

For as they progressed further still
They found a love against their will
In the harshness of the desert land
As the monster awoke in the sand

It threatened to take the world over
As they looked to each other for light
And in them arose the heroes
That saved the world from night

They survived and not empty handed
For when the storm had passed
They found another form of treasure
They found their shelter at last

Beginning Today

Just do it and you'll get through it
Be honest or land yourself in a web
Live for laughter, love and sunshine
Be the smile they can depend on yet
Just my New Year's Resolutions
May live up to them or may forget
But that's when another comes in handy
Forgive others you may or may not
But you bloody well better forgive yourself ! ;)

The Big Fat Joke

Fire played a joke on Ice
But he didn’t think it was very nice
He didn’t laugh and he didn’t show
So whether he got it, she didn’t know
She did it as a friend to him
To let the message penetrate
But whether he was smart enough
Is something that she left to fate
So Fire will go and save the city
And leave Ice to ponder how
Even though she’s still quite mad at him
She doesn't want his feelings hurt somehow