Entrance

Enter another dimension now
This one's being set on fire
Enter another reality now
This one's being burnt with denial

Block block block
Worry worry worry
Take it easy for the heck of it
Hurry hurry hurry

Voids cannot be filled with duty
Hearts cannot be melted with prayer
Just inject me with anaesthetic
Let me be unaware

Ah! But I won't need to face the doom
I'm entering another dimension now
This one's being set on fire
I need to save myself somehow

Being a Team

....

Being a Team

By turns everything

By turns fair
By turns sensitive
By turns a steamroller
By turns aloof
By turns the smartest
By turns a blonde
By turns effervescent
By turns all air out
By turns decided
By turns confused
By turns the limelight
By turns a recluse
By turns gregarious
By turns timid and shy
By turns logical
By turns idealistic
By turns optimistic
By turns pessimistic
By turns valuing cash
By turns knowing it buys nothing lasting
By turns loving God
By turns forgetting him completely
By turns keeping love my greatest ambition
By turns knowing i'm self sufficient
By turns needing the same
By turns craving variety
By turns cherishing madness
By turns all sobriety
By turns so many different things
By turns who wants to hold onto memory
By turns I wish I remembered more
By turns thankful school is over
By turns wishing it were on
By turns feeling great connections everywhere
By turns knowing I'll never truly belong
By turns feeling potential dynamic
By turns feeling I'm always static
By turns opening up and telling all
By turns wondering whether to be honest at all
By turns cherishing life and reality
By turns all i want is the world in my sleep
By turns so many different people
I am
By turns everything

Reinforcements

No research-
Coz I don't like lab
I wish I did
But I just feel irritated in it
Bound by technique (i hate rules)
Enslaved by my own temperament
And it doesn't come that naturally
(I don't like things that don't come naturally)
I picture myself getting bored and frustrated
Wishing there was something with faster results
Where i could see more getting executed
Perhaps at most I'd like to chronicle
The current work in my writing
At least it'd be an outlet
I could come up with fantastic ideas i know
I'm good at that
But even now tell me to make a presentation
(read research articles)
I'll yawn in your face
Tell me to make a sales strategy
Or a business plan
I'm suddenly all over the place
My pricing skills have to be improved tho
And sure right now if I make myself think that way
Seeing falciparum under a microscope
Or going to Africa to research HIV may seem like fun
But imagination is sorely overdone
My other side argues
Picking up the phone and calling someone
Doesn't seem that much fun at all (networking)
But when I was an editor I loved doing it
I guess its all about the need, recognition and of course the pay
I love seeing new places- maybe thats why Africa seems so nice
A microscope for 2o years- oh yeah suddenly I'm screaming help!
A centrifuge, a chromatograph, a colorimeter
Help! Help! Help!!!
Is it fun tho?
latest equipment? Hmmm????
Wouldn't I like to be at the forefront of new discovery???
The truth is its not all glory
Its damn hard work
And when it comes down to it
Where would you rather damn hard work?
The research point of view or the business point of view
And i guess there is my answer
I would prefer not to damn hard work at all...lolz!
Think Divya Think!
Would I rather get picked on by a boss at research or business?
Would i rather get up early sleep late for reasearch or for business?
Would I apply all my energy and not feel that bad for research or for business?
Would i rather endure politics at research or at business?
Would I be more willing to solve problems at research or at business?
Would i cut the crap and do what I have to at research or at business?
Would I not feel resentful at reasearch or at business?
Would I laugh more and for the right reasons at research or at business?
Would I breathe easier at research or at business?
Would I be able to multitask and have a life?
Would I love my life more if I took up research or business?
Would I feel my potential being utilized at research or at business?
Well considering all the answers except the last are unequivocally business
I guess industry after B. Pharm is fine by me... ;)

Ten years from now

This is an experiment
My mistress shall help me find a wife
My hobby shall tell me what I want from life
Poetry come to my rescue
After my B. Pharm, what shall I do?

Okay I really don't want to study more
In all honesty, I can't seem to put my mind to it
And there is an old saying- you understand when you do it
Even if there is a global crisis
If I work I'll learn more (just like a course)
Colo, Cogno, Ceutics, Biotech
Research for the impatient is a bore

I don't see myself motivated enough
Though I'd love to find a cure to malaria or diabetes
Put me in a lab
And I'm much more likely
To write another one of these
(Saying how i must get out)

Rather than be the nincompoop
Who loathes lab while longing to be Shakespeare
Industry will fascinate me if merely the cycle
That helps rake in the profit each year

Its so much more practical and a lot more versatile
I can choose to do as I please
And I can find which position I like best
And put in the best of me

If I change my mind (which I doubt)
I can always do a course later
But right now I want to be in the midst of things
I want to do something that will put me in it all
I want to see the industry
And I want to learn now
What am I most compatible with
What interests me the most
What can i excel at
In reaching quality drugs to those who need them

Drunk

Sweet swirl of liquid
Fragrance intoxicates me
Devilish warm

Soak in the drop
It floods my senses
Ah! What a rush!

The night cuddles me
I feel the wind beneath
No longer grounded
I'm high!

Who cares about balance?
When you can do the crazy dance
Give me just one more
I'll show you what it means to be free

She cares

I know she cares
She can't help it
If she's a million years away
What the hell!
It seems like everyone is

I know I have to
I can't help it
I don't do anything
I don't want to
Depends on my mood

These red eyes
Like my soul is bleeding
Don't jump to conclusions
Its just too much reading
I can't help it if i chase fantasy
Its the only way I know to time travel

Rambling on and on
Its 1 :30 what the hell is going on?
So sweet this black and white
But I must really say good nite
What the hell
Maybe just one more...

Static

Freeze the time
I'm out of sync
I don't want to rhyme
But its how I think
Do what is easy
Or blend myself in the dust
Not so easy for you
But its the only thing I trust
Just flowing
My way to get back
To where I need to be
My truest way
To get out of me
And change this static moment
To a dynamic creation

Migraine- A Tale of Computer Addiction

I've plugged in my brain
To its gigabytes
Slave to an addiction
Minutes become hours become days
Staring at pixels
Now they merge into one
They blur as a deformed reality
My virtual craze
No longer cognizant of that around me
No longer me
I'm anime
I'm a robot
I'm nonexistent
Colors, noises, prerogatives
All so much easier
I've escaped
And now I've lost
Time, Energy, Reason
Over the score that doesn't matter
I'm lost in the blur
Migraine

Complicated

Uncomprehensible logic
An irony so tragic
All calling for a little magic
An attempt at understanding

Gals can't escape emotion
Guys give logic their devotion
Both feel lust in good proportion
But love can get demanding

Its Mr. Right Vs. Mr. Right Now
Soul mates find each other anyhow
When you find yours- you know somehow
And then you leap hoping you'll have that safe landing

...Your happily ever after ending.... ;) ;) ;)

LMAO

Its time we get over it
What we did we did was shit
Could never have believed it
U did ur time i took my hit
Its time we just laugh over it
We'll keep it as a memory bit
Its time we get over it ;)
So I'm LMAO- hah hahahah hahahah hahah hahahah hahah
Who could ever have believed it????

Study Smart

Study hard he says
I say I'd rather study smart
Wasting time to maximize it
Is truly an in born art ;)

Sleep to wake up to the dawn
With a need to see salvation
A burst of passion headed my way
To make the best of education

I have time- to faf and play
To share my self with those around
Studying is maxing ur mind and minning your time
And not to your books be bound

Back to The Beginning

(This has been recollected from a dream. At the time it was startling in its intensity and detail)
She' d seen everything
Done everything
Tired and jaded from exhaustion
She weighed her options
As she flew across the sea
Danced along its surface really
Startling beauty against the setting sun
Summer, winter, heaven, hell...
Every portal was open to her
Mars, Pluto, ...Atlantis...
Boring! reechoed in her mind
Hitler, Chanakya, Cesar, Rameses...
Damn! She'd seen all of them
She hated repeating herself
Then suddenly an idea came
And she smiled
Automatically
Darn it! Who would have thought?
She smiled once more
And magically blushed
She knew where she needed to be
With the one heart that had captured hers
Before it had given out
She'd teach him to be strong- just like her
She'd show him marvellous things
She'd see him smile- still innocent
And thoroughly taken with her idea
She went to be a nanny- if you could call her that
To the small boy who called to her
From right across the shore

(The girl's name is Dinah. She is an immortal who has vast power - teleportation, prescience and superhuman strength to name a few. She features in most of the legends with different names and laughs at those who consider her a heroine for despite her basic nature, she feels she can never give back as much as she has been given. She loves living amongst humans and changing base now and then. Playful and loving, she is at crossroads in the 21st century where she really does not know what to do with her life. Before she makes that decision, she will take a break by becoming a nanny to the child, the man she most loved used to be and taking him on her secret journeys. He will grow up to be the most widely read author in the world.)

The Birth of Fire

(Disha has been a naughty girl all day- only reading in bed and not doing anything she said she would. Her mom comes home and finding the place a mess, rages out - shouting up and down the house. Disha uses her choice escape- sleep where she can drown out the voice and the momentary guilt. However she has given her body enough rest to change to the full version of Fire- a change she is not prepared for but must come to terms with somehow)

She found herself in shadow
Huddling in the dark
Voices shouting all around her
Intensifying
She shivered and burnt in the same instant
She tried to sleep but the peace wouldn't come
Tossing and turning she tried to drown out the sensation
Of heat prickles climbing up her spine like angry snakes
And spreading like a quick fever to the rest of her
Burning the sinew and cartilage in its wake
The pain- the burning pain
And then she became all numb
For she couldn't feel a thing
But it wasn't over yet
Ropes of fire coiled within her
Replacing what they had destroyed
And she arose with renewed vigor
To take a look at herself
Through eyes that shot out flames
She smiled
This would take getting used to
Living breathing flame stood in the mirror
Tendrils of livid orange surrounding her face
Features and body defined by the flame
She wrinkled her nose in disgust
As she finally got the smell of something burning
She was standing, what would the voices say?
About the remnants of what used to be her room

Eyes

He asked her again
'Will you marry me?'
She denied him
'Not till I have eyes to see.'

Providence was fair
Fate offered her a prize
A call to give her vision
A brand new pair of eyes

She opened them to see
A most unbearable sight
He was as blind as she'd been
She could not be his wife

He left in tears and wrote her
To finally cut off their ties
'Take care of the pair you're using now
They used to be my eyes.'

The only thing I've ever loved

(A Vampire's Love- inspired from Twilight- Edward to Bella)

Forever isn't even close
To how long I'd wish you to be mine
But I don't want to kill
The only thing I've ever loved

You don't realize
What you ask of me
Too selfless to keep you by my side
Too selfish to relenquish your love
I need you here with me

Just a bit longer
Restrain this desire
Bind it with reason
I cannot take you
Cannot make you mine
I may eat you

I've waited for so long
Sweet strength don't desert me
You are yet mine my love
Till my senses leave me

Safe with me
Protected from my monster
You are my light, my life, my hope
The only thing I've ever loved

Just For The Moment

She danced like a wild thing
On air she felt her heart sing
She’d given away everything
For one moment’s joy
She knew this wouldn’t last
She had to act so fast
Take everything then make it the past
For she couldn’t trust the boy
One more leap
Nothing too deep
Just a memory she could keep
Alive for the moment still

The Mummy

(This is one of my fav films. I can see it an endless number of times. So I decided to write sumthin usin it as the inspiration)
She knew the place deep in her heart
It was where she was meant to be
He was the one who could take her there
But he was her enemy

Unwillingly they made a tryst
For the adventure and the gold
They were naught to know the surprise
Which their journey would have in store

For as they progressed further still
They found a love against their will
In the harshness of the desert land
As the monster awoke in the sand

It threatened to take the world over
As they looked to each other for light
And in them arose the heroes
That saved the world from night

They survived and not empty handed
For when the storm had passed
They found another form of treasure
They found their shelter at last

Beginning Today

Just do it and you'll get through it
Be honest or land yourself in a web
Live for laughter, love and sunshine
Be the smile they can depend on yet
Just my New Year's Resolutions
May live up to them or may forget
But that's when another comes in handy
Forgive others you may or may not
But you bloody well better forgive yourself ! ;)

The Big Fat Joke

Fire played a joke on Ice
But he didn’t think it was very nice
He didn’t laugh and he didn’t show
So whether he got it, she didn’t know
She did it as a friend to him
To let the message penetrate
But whether he was smart enough
Is something that she left to fate
So Fire will go and save the city
And leave Ice to ponder how
Even though she’s still quite mad at him
She doesn't want his feelings hurt somehow