Why? Why? Why? Why do I have to study? Why can’t I make a decision? Why does this vacation suddenly seem too short and unfulfilling? A vacation? Is that what I said? Hmmm, this heat must be making me lose my mind. I’ve had working days lighter than this vacation. And why? Because I have the utterly easy, simply accomplished (note the sarcasm) task of making a place for myself in the science stream. Whom have I got to blame? None other than my ambitious self, who doesn’t yet have a goal, mind you. Any wonder I’m getting lost in self contemplation and mindless self loathing. This lethargy is creeping over me like a warm quilt on a hot summer night- that’s right, totally unwanted. Work is looming up like tidal tsunami wave and I’m powerless to stop it cause this girl gets ruled by her emotions and feelings and right now this heart is screaming ‘lets party’ while this mind is screaming ‘you have to sit down and study’. Clash of the titans? No wonder I’m feeling so upset. Wouldn’t you be feeling it too? And then I think about anything other than the immediate problem- the truckload of study- I think about something abstract like lets say intelligence? Do I have any? That’s laughable. Well let’s see intelligence is common sense+ general knowledge right? Something that we depend on in crises that we land in because of lack of it in the first place. Very ironic, if I say so myself. I’m looking forward to using my intelligence later on, because right now it’s just not helping. Everyone considers themselves to be intelligent on some level- consciously or subconsciously but the fact is very few are truly and consistently intelligent. Everyone has intelligence but few have mastered the art of using it. Even Archimedes had his bouts of pure nuttiness like Eureka. And actually I prefer eccentricity over intelligence it adds such a delightful flavor to life. Intelligence is used to master life; I think eccentricity is used to play around with it. The perfect combination of both would make each day a wonder but I fear I get the latter more than the former.
Anyways, now I’ve managed to type away all my frustration and even I am not eccentric enough to want an all night excursion into the ‘wonderland of study your brain out’ (I sometimes worry about a central system overload, but heck at this rate I have nothing to fear, do I?) so anyways I’ll bid you goodnight and farewell. And pray this one time my intelligence reigns supreme over my eccentricity!
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